there are some people you meet in life for a reason, and some you don't. i believe that i met him for a reason. he has the potential to be the best thing that ever happened to me. so why doesn't he realize it? if i was only a couple of years older, he said. why does it matter? i normally wouldn't give someone like him the time of day. there's just ( Read more... )

i've got this uncertainty about everything now. i feel like my head is going to explode. i think it's because i express my mind over my emotions, if that makes any sense at all. i've chosen to distance myself from everyone i come in contact with, and i'm not sure why. i must have hella trust issues. i've never been insecure about myself, but i'm ( Read more... )

so, richard is out of jail. :) peyton is out of rehab. :) and in a half-way house. :(

i have to potty..

i love buddy. :) he's so cute and funny and special, and mean. it's so wonderful to be around somebody who just doesn't give a fuck. i noticed lately that i don't have as many friends as i once did. that's cool, i don't mind. i figure at least i know the friends i do have are really good people. at least. i'm in this predicament right now that i ( Read more... )

i'm so scatterbrained, i just don't know what to fucking do anymore. i'm sick of guy's lying to me, so i cut the whole relationship thing out of the picture. i'm sick of girls lying to me, so i threw that whole trust/friendship thing out the window. i'm not empty or coldhearted or sad, i just wish there was actually someone out there that ( Read more... )

....lost in a daze my eyes wonder in a haze i cant remember the ways i used to say things to you in the night i fight dreams of schemes you thought up in your head like a story but this life isn't a fairy tale its a game you have to play so you don't end up played just think of it reversed like an opposition cause defense is only a reaction ( Read more... )

have you noticed that they don't play that coca-cola commercial anymore ( Read more... )

for katrina, you want to know where we evacuated to? i don't even want to tell you- it's too classic for my family. we evacuated to mobile, alabama. to my surprise, when i finally woke up at 12:00 noon on Monday- the hurricane sucked, and it was no sight to see. i played in it for mary's sake. i hate meteorologists.

you know that you've officially had a good night when you don't remember half of it and you wake up bruised from head to toe. i don't think i've been that happy in a fucking minute.

p.s. i believe i've found the lost city of atlantis
...and my very own big daddy.

i'm not sure how much longer i have left in this world, but it's great to know that i'm not taking shit for granted. i appreciate everything. not everyone- but everything. i remember having a discussion on trees one day, and it occurred to me that trees have been here longer than anything else in the world. amazing isn't it? and if god's grace is ( Read more... )