im ready to start over with my life...i really am...im ready to move on from my party days...im going to quit smoking cigs and weed, im going to eventually quit drinking but for now im just gonna calm down with that, im going to find a new job and save up my money to go away to chic in the fall...i havent decided whether i want to got to the one in ( Read more... )

my weekend....
starting with thursday..
went to big rapids to hang with hanna.
went to caddies with danielle.
got kicked out of caddies..
woke up the next morning next to blake...
got a parking ticket in n. mux..

friday....
went to jamies...
ummm took way to many shots..
drank way to much beer..
and passed out on the couch....
woke up and went home.

saturday...
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so i finally got a hold of baker and set up my payment plan..god it took me long enough...but anyway...my money situation as of now..will be paying that, paying cell, paying car insurance, and paying dad for his gas...well helping him with it...

"things will be tight for a while..but daddy we'll make it through we always do.and i just want you to ( Read more... )

 so i guess yesturday was the day for old people to get ahold of me one i havent talked too in 2 in a half months and the other a month in a half...boys.im sick of them. we all stopped talking for a reason..we should just leave it at that..well the 2 in a half month one i will but the month and a half one...i miss as my friend...so he can keep ( Read more... )

 tonight consisted of fav cousi and dj.
gh pointless.
vou.
mall.
tj max.
gage ears.

then home.

2 in a half months later and now you wanna talk.
i feel like i can never escape cause every time i give into seeing you.
fuck it.

 so i belive i am at the point in my life that i am finally discorvering wh i am and how i want to live my life. what i want to do and where i want to be. i am giving myself a time limit. 6 months to save all the money i can. and go. without saying a word to anyone. just go. find myself and where i believe is right for me cause its not here. and ( Read more... )

 I am finally ready to spill it all out...everything that no one knew. every single reason i did everything i did...cause in all realization...i finally know all the answers. for the first time in my life. i know where i want to be in a year....and i know how i want to handle everything that happens or has happened to me. i went to my aunts last ( Read more... )

":baby get ready get set please dont go.":

i think im turning into my mom.
and i dont know if thats a good thing or not...
i guess the alcoholic aspect is ok..
who gives a shit now,....
fuckin drink to it.
cheers to everyone....;

fuck this

only god can judge me so who gives a shit

 so....my dad is concidering moving to r. town....theres nothing here for him and he can hardly make it on his own...in r he would be with family..of course he thinks about it when im out of high school....o well...he would do it in the summer so ryan could start his high schools years there....and ryan actually wants to move there he is the one ( Read more... )

so a few weeks ago i had this huge lump under my arm that they had to remove..and they never told me what it was..but i ended up going to the doc three times that week for it and still nothing..never told what it was..they switched me from one med to a stronger...still dont know why...and now i found three more lumps under my other arm...i am going ( Read more... )