i fucking hate my "parents"

[sammieleigh]

Have you ever looked at a payphone for 2 hours hoping that when it rings good news will follow? I have. That was my Tuesday night. I was searching for a place to stay and the realization that if i couldnt get a ride to RU then i would be stranded walking around Somerville for 9 hours til Dan could get to me was sinking in... I wound up walking up

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re: i fucking hate my "parents"

[anonymous]

Sam,

Perhaps the reason you "fucking hate" your "'parents'" is because we expect a 20 year old to act responsible, and make responsible decisions, then actually follow through with those decisions. And not ruin her entire life so she can follow Dan around like a lost puppy dog. Your previous entry states that you wish you could go back and make better choices, you can't do that, however, you can start fresh today, all you need to do is decide that that is what you are going to do, and do it. Running away to PA is not going to solve anything. Have you stop to think that the reason rent is so low out there is because there are no jobs available? Next month you will be in the same position you are in now, no money and no place to live. We have told you time and again that you are way to smart, and talented, to be living like this. Stop blaming other people for your mistakes and telling people that you hate them simply because they love you and want to see you do more with your life, as we know you can.

Mom

[sammieleigh]

yeah if by love you mean dont want me to be happy then sure you love me. you two play favorites like there is no tomorrow and ya know what? for once im not afraid to call you on it. you two dont like randy's g/f or her mom at all yet randy can still live there with no hassel from you two and go see katie whenever he wants to. you guys wanted me to give my car to randy or sell it dirt cheap cos "i have no use for it"... uh hellooo last i checked i had a license and if an alternator is cheap then hell yes i have use for a car... considering as I OWN IT! you guys give nicky more freedom then you have ever or will ever give me. and if you think i dont know that you guys wanted to moniter who calls me and who i call and everything i do at all times then im not as stupid as you would like me to be. im not following dan.... everything i have done has been MY decision. i know you like to think that i dont have a brain of my own but newsflash i do. and im not going to live the way you want anymore. wash your hands of me... go right ahead. see

im not taking sides im just curious...

[anonymous]

"Running away to PA is not going to solve anything."

but if she has no where to stay around here where is she sposed to go? Question is, if that not the answer then what is?