Every sky was your own kind of blue...

[sammymi]

Yeah, so I never update this thing. EVER. But there are a few things on my chest that I would like to let out. I doubt anyone actually reads this thing, but whatever, it'll help with my frustration.

SO. Jay... was a bad idea. I was with him for almost 2 years as most of you know. We were actually discussing our future together... marriage, kids...

Comments

[theminion]

Well here's what I think. I think the new guy should back off on his feelings until you're ready for them, because he may be pushing you into something you aren't ready for even if he doesn't mean to. So my suggestion is to keep on letting him be there for you emotionally and physically until you both figure your shit out.

And believe me, he has shit to figure out.

PS: You are 100% a totally unique irreplaceable person who is amazingly special.

[sammymi]

So people DO read this thing.

Yes, I agree with what you're saying... but not with the whole pushing part. He's not pressuring me at all, I don't find. I guess I'm just scared of trying anything because I don't want to end up in love again because it is the shittiest thing in the whole world. I don't think I could live with another heartbreak. I just feel so stupid, like I should have caught onto his schemes earlier, you know?

Yeah, I'd say the two of us have shit to figure out. And I should probably talk to him soon about all of this, because I don't know where my mind is at.

P.S. I wish I could believe that. Tell it to the asshole.

Also, you're an amazing friend who is all of those things you mentioned. Thanks the advice and being here for me.

[theminion]

Of course I do :p I just don't post that often anymore.

Well he's online now, let's talk :)

[sammymi]

Hmm... you really should.

And I hope you're not too upset with me.