la lala laaa.

[samuraikurisu]

today was odd. but then, it was thursday. I never really know what to make of thursdays. I think I need to go out on a date with my girlfriend. if only. my parents can't know, so it would be really hard to pull off. plus, she's in the same place. sigh. I do love her, though. some people are saying it doesn't seem like I do, and that scares me. I

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[dark_night_rose]

People must be very blind if they can't see that you love me. I've felt more love from you than I have from any of my ex-boyfriends. I'm so sorry if I haven't shown how much I love you. Yesterday and this morning I was not my self. My body felt like it was shutting down and I have no enery wich was making me sort of depressed. I hope nothing is really wrong with me. I got good sleep last night but it didn't help. The coffee did, but I can't just go from caffeen rush to sugar rush forever. My caffeen rush is over now and I feel worse. The only thing keeping me going right now is my love for you. Thank you for keeping me here. I really want to spend some time alone with you so we can just talk. I wish you could call me. I love the sound of your voice.

*having an aha moment*

[samuraikurisu]

we need to do something outside of school. like at the play, I felt closer to you. sorta. we need to go somewhere. yes, like a date. but we'd have to be crafty so your parents (and mine) wouldn't get suspicious. I don't know. i'll think. I would love to call you. is the problem your parents? that's the problem on my side. or is the problem just that I don't have your number. btw, I need the vital stuff. you know, your birthday, favourites, middle name (you told me, but I was lost in your eyes), stuff like that. oh, fears too. yep. I want to see you and be with you. ohand tomorrow we'll go with your friends so they don't feel rejected. kay? I love you.