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[samy]

While I've thought about the following often, I haven't thought it prudent to post it during the darker times, since it might have given people the impression that I was greasing up a rope. It's kind of morbid but it's not indicative of suicidal thoughts, I'm comparatively okay at the moment, which is why I feel safe and comfortable in posting this

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[jeditigger]

Thank you for letting us know, but may you have a long and happy life hereafter.

[lumiyu]

My uncle died just before Christmas, and even if we weren't close, I haven't seen him in years and... it was still hard and filled my head with all kinds of thoughts. And sadness. I think it would've been very hard if not possible to be cheery or celebrate as such if he had requested that.

I was sad for him, and sad for not getting to know him better and sad for all the things that didn't happen.

But I understand your request, and I wouldn't want people to mourn for me either when the time comes. I'd want them to be happy, not sad. And it'll come. There's people who I've lost and who I still miss, but I also smile when I think of them, all the good we had together and how wonderful people they were.

Since it's kind of related: I've also filled out organ donation will, so that if something does happen to me, I hope some part of me will be of some use to someone else.