Comments | sana_gale: derp derp UGH

sana_gale

derp derp UGH

Mar 23, 2009 23:34

So I essentially promised myself that I’d never angst in LJ ever again but….yeah

I kind of don’t know where to begin. This is super personal and longwinded and pathetic so I’ll lj cut it. Don’t feel as if you have to read it, it’s SERIOUSLY longwinded.

( Angst )

Comments 7

arrowwhiskers March 24 2009, 05:40:43 UTC

Okay...three things ( ... )

<3 l33tspike March 24 2009, 07:15:12 UTC

An appreciation for beauty is often something acquired (wine, books). So the lowest common denominator may in fact be the worst judge... especially if he's kind of a D-bag. I was going through pictures from high school on Thursday and I kept running into pictures of you where you were looking sweet and attractive. Self loathing is seductive, but it's a vice. I don't think it changes anything for you to punish yourself, it just makes you unhappy.

I get the sense that you feel that you have to suffer, that it's necessary, but it's not and it keeps you from flourishing. It's worth considering why you bind yourself to it.

acern March 24 2009, 13:17:01 UTC

No, no, no, no! D: I can't think of any way to express this that doesn't contradict what you said (such as not really wanting to hurt him), but I want to go out there and shoot that bastard. Katie, what he's making you feel is completely unjustified- I mean, _you_ feel like an ogre for pawing _him_ over? Let's go back to the part where you "displayed unrelenting compassion and affection for him" and he totally just threw it all away, he convinced you to "go further" with him and then was an asshole and broke up with you, and how not having seen each other for a good while, you go out of your way to visit him and he makes you wait in his living room? Even if the people there _weren't_ mutual friends, that's a completely bullshit thing to do, to anyone, never mind someone you're dating! I don't know this guy, but I can _guarantee_ that the problem's more on his side than yours. My guess is that when you were making out and you didn't start crying, he realized that a relationship was not what he'd come to expect- that is, a completely ( ... )

namelessw0nder March 24 2009, 16:54:32 UTC

"No one that I will ever love will ever feel the same way about me ( ... )

liberkaotica March 24 2009, 18:29:53 UTC

Man, Katie, don't be hating yourself over someone like that.

I'll try to pwn him on TF2 some for ya :D

I have nothing to add that Rai, Bear, and Carol, and those other people I don't really know, haven't already said. You're a great person, "this person" is the one with the issues.