Is it so hard to believe our hearts ( Read more... )

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last night was...... fucked up. went to Erocks house and got drunk. hung out with all my friends and shit.... kind of funny eric told me that allison dosnt want to talk to me any more caz i guess i call her to much but i only call her back. caz most of the time im at work when she calls and then i call her when im off or when i have some time at ( Read more... )

so yeah im writing again, not really sure why i this really dosnt do anything for me. maybe it does i dont know...... well allison dosnt like me. thats fine, it really dosnt matter ( Read more... )

sadly i dont really do any art work anymore. i kind of found it a wast of my time, hours apone hours of drawing painting and coloring. got me no where in life ( Read more... )

so i got drunk again last night only caz i didnt have school this morning. i also got my HiM ticket last night at the mall. i seen allison, she was at work. she work at the mall at sam goodys. she was at erics house after work (thats where i was drinking at) but anyways she was working on some art work she wouldnt let me see it. i took a peek tho. ( Read more... )

so im a year older now. looking back on this year a lot has changed. my self esteem went out the fucking window. i now let everyone walk all over me. im now a drunk ( Read more... )

im just really getting sick of my fucking life..... its really Gay. im at dans house right now and i had a beer bong. and the beer was like all fome. and i pucked. i guess i pissed everyone off caz that was my 7th one im not really drunk but i just got sick from all the fucking fome. and everyones getting pissed off. but fuck it i guess. i was ( Read more... )

so yes its 1am and im still up. not to long ago i couldnt sleep at all. then i got better and could sleep without sleeping pills. and well i cant sleep any more. but whatever i guess. i dont really know whats going on i guess. so yeah anyways school is almost out thats kind of cool. i have an engilsh finel and im not really sure how im going to do ( Read more... )

so yeah i dont really talk to this thing anymore. but im kind of like bla right now soooo yeahhhh mother fucking bitchers. yeah ive had a little to drink. like 5 shots and 3 mix drinks. and i think a little more but im not really so sure anymore. but whatever mother brother. so yeah teresa had me come over this week all kinds of late, she was a ( Read more... )