What's Going On?

[sandmansister]

Doing a lot of pondering lately about What the Hell I'm Doing. How am I spending my time and energy? Turns out, both are finite and the older I get the more apparent it becomes. I need more time to recover from most of my Doin' and I start to wonder why. It's not a bad thing, but certainly not comfortable

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[txreisende]

I've got no wisdom to offer, being very much in a chrysalis state myself. My world is small and intensely centered on the hearth just now, and will be for several years yet, I think. That being said, I am coming to have a strong appreciation for the notion of life stages, and fully inhabiting the one I'm in. Trying hard to remember, in a paraphrase of Yoda, not to have my mind always on the future, to actually live where I am. There is always a certain amount of past-analysis/retconning, and more future planning/daydreaming than there should be, but I find the most peace and the least dissonance when I can relax into the firm knowledge that this is where I am right now..that this stage won't last forever, or even really that long. It's okay to just be this, just be this version of me, right now. That is what your thoughts on authenticity pulled out for me, at any rate - I'm not quite sure if that's what you meant by them, but it provided some good food for reflection over here, for which I thank you

[rowangolightly]

As a partial non-sequitur, I met the actual woman who was the model for Hallmark's Maxine. I am also the artist who created the first 3D Maxines for Hallmark, back in the 90's. Strange, huh? The person Maxine was modeled after is the artist's great Aunt. I met her at a wedding for which I did the dresses, and knew this because the mother of the bride came over to me and went, "Psssst, that's the real life Maxine!" But I discovered the fact of her identity while I was making 5' Maxine figures out of pvc frames with fabric bodies over them, stuffed with foam and dressed with findings from thrift stores that my mother shopped for.

She was much more nicely dressed than her great nephew drew her but then, it was a family wedding. Observing her at the reception, I had a better understanding of the cartoon her.

I keep saying my life is stranger than fiction.

Self-examination is a good thing but it ain't always easy. And getting older isn't easy either but it surely beats the alternative.