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[sandra__bullock]

I fear I'm running out of ways to occupy myself and pass the time. I've felt like I've needed to keep myself busy for fear of just standing still, but yet, I think I've done everything I possibly can and there's no way to keep this from happening soon. In the past few weeks, I've organized, redecorated a little, took care of errands I had been

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[jason_reso]

Hi Sandra very nice too meet you finally. my Jeffers gave me your name. I want to thank you for adding me back.

You have an enduring presence on people. Its hard to describe really, cause I usually make no sense *smiles brightly*

But don't let things trouble you so much. Heck even I know that's hard. I try not to myself. I dont think your post was long and boring. But I will say I benefitted from reading it. You're a gem. And I admire you. Talent and beauty.

*Jay-Jay huggles*

[sandra__bullock]

It's a pleasure to meet you, too. And you're welcome.

I'm at a loss for words. Your words are so kind and thoughtful and they brought a big smile to my face. Thank you so much for that. It's exactly what I needed. :)

[jerseywood]

Told you i could share my men. Now you've 2 already.

And i was gonna make a nice comment to this update, but i'm too late. What i felt has already been put into words by Jay.

[maria__bello]

People who have a positive effect on other people are known as source of bliss where problems, thoughts or doubts run dry. That's not how it goes. But it's important to keep an optimistic attitude to face the world ahead otherwise... it will stop spinning around.

Regret is a powerful weapon.

[sandra__bullock]

Thank you, I agree, especially with the last part. Regret really IS a powerful weapon.

[johanna_asplund]

Your post makes so much sense, and the questions you pose explain why I try to live my life so that I never have to wonder "what if...?". :)

[sandra__bullock]

I'm glad you can relate to my post, and I'm glad that you try to live life that way. Keep it up. :)

[k_reeves]

that was not a boring post, but it was one of the most thought provoking on my friends page.

I hate that I've begun to analyze everything and fail to let myself just go with the flow like I used to

as painful as it is to stop and focus on every detail, perhaps it can be beneficial. i mean, it might help in realising what's wrong so you can work to improve it, resolve it somehow.

It is our nature to seek happiness, but yet, I've noticed that many people convince themselves that finding happiness is as impossible as being able to fly.we all have these doubts, no matter how hard some of us work to push them away so we can take the risks that might lead us to be happier...but past experiences where that happiness was eroded linger on and people dwell on those and believe that happiness is not something that can be achieved. it's understandable but it only hinders us in the long run

[sandra__bullock]

Thank you for your reply. And no, you did not ramble. Everything you said made perfect sense and I was happy to see your face on the reply.

Unfortunately, I'm not doing too well right now, but I know that it's only a matter of time until I am okay.

It should get easier to turned down. It's certainly happened enough. But it doesn't, and now that it's happened again, it hurts even more than before. I don't understand why I don't deserve happiness. I've done everything in my power to find it, and when I finally do, I can't have it only because the man I want is too afraid/confused to face his own feelings. It's all one big mess, and as selfish and as stupid as it sounds, I just want someone to care. Not as just a friend, but as a lover. I want to be wanted. I want love. You know I've never been one to sit back and wait for things to happen, and I think that's why I'm having such a problem now that I'm being forced to do so.

[k_reeves]

i'm not completely sure what's going on as i haven't been around here much, and sadly i haven't spent actual time recently catching up on things with you, but i hope you do feel better soon sandy.

it doesn't sound stupid. we all chase things that we feel might fill up the empty spaces. sometimes they do, and other times they leave the spaces wider. but it's always worth the shot.

some things take time, some people need time and while they're looking for some solace, maybe it's better to give them some space...but let them know that you're there if they ever need anyone.

[sandra__bullock]

Thank you, that means a lot to me.

I think you have just said exactly what I would have told someone if I was the one giving the advice. You're absolutely right, and I wish it was easy to take your advice and put it into play. Unfortunately, I think it's going to take time. Time. I hate that word. Why is everything about time?

I really miss you, and your recent comments have caused my mind to travel back to old days on set and to laughter and memories we both share. We need to catch up, and I could really use a good friend right now. Do you think It'd be alright if I gave you a call?

[Do you have AIM?]

[beatrice_o_york]

Just letting you know that I have READ it, and I added you to my list!