Brains.
It's 5:30 AM, and I'm gonna have to go with the nap I took between 7 and 10 being enough to go on, apparently, because I am not sleeping tonight.
One of the things I really like about my brain is that I am very good at back-burnering things. I can ask myself a difficult question and my brain will say,"huh, self, let me get back to you on that." And then it will, actually, get back to me on that. Sometimes with pretty smart things, if I say so myself. At an unpredictable rate which can be as long as, oh, years. :)
This is a coping mechanism for the fact that my executive function -- the fast processor -- is kind of a cranky little engine that can't so much do things like make decisions or notice stuff in the moment. It's one of the things I like about doing therapy, because you can always say, "Hey, you know, last week we were talking about X, and I started thinking...." Yeah.
Anyway, I have been back-burner processing ALL OF THE THINGS lately. I can't even tell you how many processes I have going on, because once I set them up, they don't go "ding" until there's stuff. This is the major reason why I have been radio-quiet: not much up-front processor left.
And when it goes DING, it doesn't matter if it's oh-five-hundred ("for you Marines, that's when Mickey's little hand is on the 5 and his big hand is on the twelve"). I am AWAKE! Because there are ANSWERS! And now we need to do STUFF!
Tonight's DING is in response to some work I am doing on social phobia/social anxiety disorder. This is partly for a project, partly for a client, and partly because I think it's going to end up being a big part of my practice. And I just had a theory. (A dancing demon? No something isn't right there....)
So hey. This isn't exactly science yet, but. Even if you don't, but especially if you do have an anxiety disorder or a history of panic attacks or social anxiety, answer me a couple questions:
(1) Do you remember your earlier childhood (say 4-10 years) particularly well, generally speaking?
(2) Imagine yourself trying to describe something that happened recently, like a meeting or class, to someone else who wasn't there. Pick something where you had a major contribution. Easy or difficult?
(3) Now imagine trying to do the same thing, but with something similar that happened about five years ago. Easy or difficult??
Nope, don't quite know where this is going, but there's a thingummy, a confluence, about social anxiety and social memory and defense mechanisms, and it is right on the tip of my brain. And apparently my brain now requires input, so: DING.
Okay, that's clearly what the question was, because I'm all tired again like I should be. Damn brain.
One of the things I really like about my brain is that I am very good at back-burnering things. I can ask myself a difficult question and my brain will say,"huh, self, let me get back to you on that." And then it will, actually, get back to me on that. Sometimes with pretty smart things, if I say so myself. At an unpredictable rate which can be as long as, oh, years. :)
This is a coping mechanism for the fact that my executive function -- the fast processor -- is kind of a cranky little engine that can't so much do things like make decisions or notice stuff in the moment. It's one of the things I like about doing therapy, because you can always say, "Hey, you know, last week we were talking about X, and I started thinking...." Yeah.
Anyway, I have been back-burner processing ALL OF THE THINGS lately. I can't even tell you how many processes I have going on, because once I set them up, they don't go "ding" until there's stuff. This is the major reason why I have been radio-quiet: not much up-front processor left.
And when it goes DING, it doesn't matter if it's oh-five-hundred ("for you Marines, that's when Mickey's little hand is on the 5 and his big hand is on the twelve"). I am AWAKE! Because there are ANSWERS! And now we need to do STUFF!
Tonight's DING is in response to some work I am doing on social phobia/social anxiety disorder. This is partly for a project, partly for a client, and partly because I think it's going to end up being a big part of my practice. And I just had a theory. (A dancing demon? No something isn't right there....)
So hey. This isn't exactly science yet, but. Even if you don't, but especially if you do have an anxiety disorder or a history of panic attacks or social anxiety, answer me a couple questions:
(1) Do you remember your earlier childhood (say 4-10 years) particularly well, generally speaking?
(2) Imagine yourself trying to describe something that happened recently, like a meeting or class, to someone else who wasn't there. Pick something where you had a major contribution. Easy or difficult?
(3) Now imagine trying to do the same thing, but with something similar that happened about five years ago. Easy or difficult??
Nope, don't quite know where this is going, but there's a thingummy, a confluence, about social anxiety and social memory and defense mechanisms, and it is right on the tip of my brain. And apparently my brain now requires input, so: DING.
Okay, that's clearly what the question was, because I'm all tired again like I should be. Damn brain.