lighthearted monday!

[santosha]

here's the thing: no one tells you that having kids means your heart breaks every single day. no one tells you that when you love someone that much, it's fucking painful. the buddhists tell you life is suffering. and it is. it hurts to love them. i walk around in a constant state of low level anxiety (sometimes ratcheted up to a high state)

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[themowingdevil]

i used to actively court death and now i'm so scared that it's going to come back and find us.

You have no idea how much I ID with this. It took my breath away to read.

I hope yr OK. I'm at work all morning but I'll be around this afternoon if you feel like corresponding!

xoxox

[santosha]

i'm ok, well you know, sort of anyway. just all this worry! but i guess growing up involves a fair amount of worry.

xoxo

[themowingdevil]

Well, yes.

But you said the thing I actively do not say because I'm not brave like that! Now I can admit it to myself.

[santosha]

i'm not brave because i want to be. i feel as if it's been foisted upon me.

and i think you're brave.

[sholanda]

i know this one!

that is a nice articulation of feelings that i have often.

[santosha]

i think we all must.

[leakyandsnort]

man, when alejandro was sick & feverish he told me he didn't want to die and tried to make me say that he wasn't going to die. man.

[santosha]

talk about dagger in heart!

[saltypepper]

Whoever said having kids is like having your heart walk around outside your body really knew what she was talking about.

[santosha]

yes, i've heard that. was it ann lamott?

children as hearts outside of us quote

[mamakalpadruma]

elizabeth stone.