i hate the winter ( Read more... )

I don't know why I feel like such a failure. People keep trying to assure me that I'm being irrational. And I know that I am. A job is not all that matters in this world ( Read more... )

Studying for my first test of senior year and listening to Death Cab. Trying to remember what it was like to be 16.

I'm hoping this will all sink in by tomorrow.

blugga blugga blugga. I'm so close I can taste it! 

Am I broken? Am I old news?

I'm old and busted.

Death comes too early for some.
It's hard to get noticed on halloween night
When you're walking like a zombie.
It's hard to go back to school
With a punctured lung.

Death comes too late for some.
It's hard to get noticed on halloween night
When you're a skeleton
It's hard to do much of anything.
When you're a corpse who can't find a coffin.

 You go and you go and you go.

Until you can't go anymore. 

 My muscles are weak and shaky and I have a rash on my legs and neck.

I'd sure like to know whether it's because I have midterms this week or if it's the new medication I'm on.

I feel like laying down and sleeping forever. 

"The cultural Christianity of America is the Kingdom of God's worst enemy. Like a flu shot, it inoculates people to the real thing."

One of the truest things I've ever read.

I told him I was drowning, but he couldn't hear me. 
I told him I was drowning, but he couldn't understand me. 
I told him I was drowning, but he couldn't save me.

And I sunk deeper and deeper and deeper.