I'm Sorry
Title: I'm Sorry
Pairing: Kangin/Leeteuk
Genre: Angst.
Warning: Death
Summary: Leeteuk didn't want Kangin to know.
Author's Note: i don't know if my readers like the pairing Kangteuk but I post this in winglin also once and I'm posting it again here. Hope you'll like it^^! Thank you for reading:)!
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“What do you mean ‘break up’ hyung?” Kangin asked Leeteuk who was standing in front of him. “We… break up Kangin.” Kangin let his hand squeeze to Leeteuk’s arm. “Why?” Leeteuk looked up, still holding back his tears. “I’m sick of our relationship. I hate the fact that I’m GAY!” That startled Kangin. His hyung never complained about their relationship before. “But you’re the one who ask me to date you!” Kangin answered harshly. “And I’m going to break up with you.” Leeteuk answered calmly.
“But hyung… don’t you love me?” Kangin’s eyes were getting wet. Even though, he was known as the strong one in the group but his heart is just like others; easily broken. “No…” Leeteuk hesitated a little. “I don’t love you…” That’s it! Kangin had enough of this. He kisses his hyung’s lips violently and trailed to his neck. “St…stop it!” Leeteuk pushes Kangin away from him and glared at him. “Did you really mean it hyung?” Leeteuk unable to answered it; nodded. “Okay then hyung,” and Kangin exited their dance studio leaving Leeteuk alone.
!!=!!=!!Leeteuk’s POV!!=!!=!!
Did I do the right thing? Is this the right choice? Breaking up with him? I miss him already… I’m sorry kangin ah… maybe it’s the best if we break up; it’ll... hurt less…
!!=!!=!!FLASHBACK!!=!!=!!(Still Leeteuk’s Pov)
It was a week ago that I was sitting on one of the bench in the hospital, waiting for my name to be called. “Park Jungsu?” The nurse looked around and I stand up. I make my way to the nurse and went in. I look at the doctor who was busy looking at some of the papers lying on his desk. “Oh, please sit down.” the doctor said. I sat down on the chair beside the table and waited patiently. The doctor then turns his head to look at me and smile. I smile back. “So… let me know about your health problem.”
I nodded and then explain that I always have stomachache and I vomited blood 3 times a day. “Hmmm…” The doctor rubbed his temple and think. “Let’s run a test on you.” The doctor stands up and I stand up too. He led me to a room next door. I saw many equipment in there and chills ran down my body. “Just lay down here.” the doctor patted the bed. I lay down my body there; hoping that everything will be fine.
After 15 minutes checking, the doctor said to just wait at his office. I walk my way to the doctor’s office and sat down. A few minutes later, the doctor came in with some paper. He sat down and then looks at me. “You have a month left to live… I’m sorry” the doctor look down at the paper. I was shocked. 1 month? I thought the doctor would say; ‘You are fine. Nothing’s wrong, you just eat some wrong food.’
“You… have a stomach cancer. It already spread to your other organs so I can only say 1 month.” I sat there dumbfounded. I was thinking; what if I die? Who would take care of the member? Who would take care of my love? Who would take care of my family? What would happen to Super Junior?
!!=!!=!! END OF FLASHBACK!!=!!=!!
I let my whole body slammed onto the ground. It hurts seeing the one you love walks away from you when you just said something horrible to him and didn’t have the chance to apologize. I cried all my heart out and screamed. I really hate this! Why should this happen to me out of all people in this world; why me? I hate the fact that I have to suffer all of this. After about an hour later, I stand on my feet feeling dizzy and walk out of the dance studio. My stomach is hurting again. I curled up on the floor beside the wall and breathe in and out. I should have just eaten my medicine so that it hurt less. I walked again with both of my hand on my stomach; rubbing it properly.
I arrived at our dorm. I went in and was greeted by Kibum who was tying his shoes; probably going out. “Teukie hyung!” he said. “I’m going to eat dinner with Siwon hyung.” He smiled. I smiled back and nodded. Then Siwon arrived from the back and asked. “Is it okay?” I smiled again. “Of course.” I walked further into the dorm and saw Kyuhyun, Donghae, Eunhyuk and Shindong playing video games. I walked into the kitchen and saw Sungmin, Hankyung, Heechul, Yesung and Ryeowook eating.“Want some Beijing rice Leeteuk hyung?” Hankyung asked. “No thanks Hannie…” I went to the fridge to take my milk. I drink it in one shot and throw the bottle into the dustbin. “You’ve been… paler lately…” Sungmin said; frowning his eyebrows. It’s true though; I’ve been paler and I feel weak all the time. “Who said I’m paler? Just your imagination Minnie.” Just as I was about to go out of the kitchen; my stomachache attacked me again and I have to vomit now. I clutched on my stomach painfully and ran to my bathroom in my room.
!!=!!=!!END OF LEETEUK’S POV!!=!!=!!
“What happen to teukie hyung?” Ryeowook asked snuggling beside Yesung. “Don’t know. Maybe sick?” All of them nodded. Eunhyuk went to the kitchen and asked why Leeteuk ran to his room. Everybody just said; SICK. “Oh… he’s always sick. Maybe we should bring him to a professional doctor.” Eunhyuk went into the kitchen and sat down. “One Beijing Rice please!” Hankyung get up and take a plate for Eunhyuk and scope some of his Beijing Rice for him. Then he gives it to Eunhyuk and Eunhyuk said ‘thank you’.
After a minutes later, the other members who was in the living room was now in the kitchen; eating. Kibum and Siwon finally went back home after eating outside. “How was the date?” Shindong asked; teasing the two of them. Kibum blushed and went back to his room. Siwon look at Kibum till he reach the room and then turn back at the members with a pout. “Ah hyung!” Shindong look at him. “What???” Siwon went to Kibum’s room and everyone look at each other.
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Leeteuk let his right hand trailed to his stomach and he squeezes his shirt. He didn’t like this. His stomachache is getting worst. He can’t go to the kitchen now; the other members were still there. Kibum knock on the door to ask Leeteuk to eat but Leeteuk didn’t answer. Kibum went in to see Leeteuk curled up on the bed. “Leeteuk hyung!” Kibum went beside Leeteuk and touches his hyung’s face. “I’m… I’m fine Kibum… Can you help me?” Kibum nodded. “Help me get my medicine in the cabinet at the kitchen please?” Kibum was about to get up when Leeteuk hold his hand. “Don’t tell anyone it’s my medicine okay?” Kibum nodded again and went to the kitchen. Kibum walked to the cabinet and take the medicine. ‘A new medicine?’ Kibum thought. Kibum close the cabinet and was about to get out of the kitchen when the members finally recognize him.
“Are you sick dongsaeng?” Heechul asked. Everyone’s attention was on Kibum now. Kibum slowly nodded. “Just a cold.” The other members nodded. Kibum walked out of the kitchen and ran to Leeteuk. Kibum help Leeteuk get up and eat his medicine. After he finishes his medicine he lay down again and thanks Kibum. Kibum nodded and sit beside his hyung. “Hyung…” Leeteuk looked at him. “Hmmm?” Kibum took the medicine bottle. “Are this new?”
Leeteuk look at the medicine bottle, then at Kibum and slowly nodded. “It says here you just buy it today. Did you see a doctor?” Leeteuk nodded. “What did he say?” Leeteuk sighed heavily. “1 month…” Kibum frowned. “1 month? What did you mean one month?” Leeteuk look at Kibum again. “I’ve got one month left Bummie…” Leeteuk sob. Kibum was shocked to hear that and the medicine bottle he was holding left his hand and crashed to the floor but luckily it didn’t spill. Kibum hugged Leeteuk tightly. “What hyung?!!! Did the doctor say it right?” Leeteuk cry on Kibum’s shoulder. “Yes Kibum ah. I don’t have much time left; the doctor said I have stomach cancer.” Leeteuk’s sob become more louder. “Did Kangin hyung know this?” Kibum let go of Leeteuk. “No… I broke up with him.” Kibum went back to his room and saw that Siwon is waiting for him on the bed; reading a book with his glasses on. “Bummie…” Siwon went to Kibum and was about to kiss him when Kibum stop him. “I’m tired; let’s just sleep…” Kibum went to his bed and lay down. Siwon just look at Kibum; dumbfounded. Siwon walk to Kibum’s bed and lay beside him and was about to wrap his arm around Kibum when Kibum refuse to.
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It’s been 1 week now and Kangin didn’t want to talk to Leeteuk. Kangin would come home at 4 am in the morning just to avoid Leeteuk. Leeteuk would cry all night knowing that Kangin is avoiding him. As well as Kibum, Siwon thought that Kibum is cheating him with Leeteuk since he already knows that the Kangteuk couple is over. “Yah Kim Kibum!” Siwon shouted at Kibum in their room. Kibum look at Siwon with a question look. “What is it Wonnie?” Siwon smirked.
“Wonnie? Oh! Don’t you ever call me that! What are you? A slut?” Kibum’s eyes widened. Siwon would never call anyone with despiteful words. “What the hell Siwon?” Siwon walked to Kibum and pinned him on the bed. “What? You think I didn’t know that you are cheating on me with Leeteuk?” Kibum struggled away from Siwon but stop when he heard that. “Th---“Siwon let go of Kibum and kiss him. “What? What is it Kibum? Tell me one specific reason so that I’ll believe you…” Siwon let go of the kiss and stare at Kibum’s eyes. “I…” Kibum remember what his hyung said about not telling anybody about it. “What Kibum?” Kibum look at Siwon and cried. Siwon was taken aback by Kibum’s action. Kibum hug Siwon and sobbed. “I’m sorry Siwon ah, let’s break up.” Siwon push Kibum away from his hug and slap Kibum. “I know you are cheating on me…” and with that last word, Siwon left and Kibum break down to the floor; crying hard. Leeteuk saw Siwon walking out of the room and was glaring at him. Leeteuk quickly went to the room to see Kibum; crying on the floor.
“Kibum ah, what happen?” Leeteuk said while comforting his back. “I...” sob “broke up...” sob “with him...” Shocked was what Leeteuk felt. Kibum sacrifice his relationship for him, how could Leeteuk left it all just like that? Leeteuk had decided that he had to tell the truth before all of this gets worse than before. Leeteuk took hold of Kibum’s hand and went to the living room of the dorm where everyone except Kangin was there. Siwon rolled his eyes and looked at the linked hands. Leeteuk sat the now calm yet quite sobbing Kibum on the sofa. He clapped both of his hands and asked the member to gather around. After everyone gathered around the living room, Leeteuk took held of his breath before he said, “I’m going to die in less than 1 month,” Every member look at each other and Sungmin suddenly blurted out, “You’re... kidding right hyung?” Leeteuk shook his head and looked at everyone seriously. “I’m not kidding... I have stomach cancer and I have less than 1 month to live,” Silence, a sad silence, Kibum who was sitting earlier is now lying down, feeling worried, Leeteuk went over to him and carry him to Leeteuk’s room. “And guys please don’t tell Kangin about this. Siwon, I’m going to keep Kibum tonight in my room.”
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“I don’t know what to say hyung... you sacrifice your biggest secret just to tell Siwon that I’m not cheating on him.” Leeteuk smile. “It’s not ‘just to’ Kibum ah. Every member should know the truth about me.” “Every member? What about Kangin hyung?” Leeteuk sighed. “Kangin would be even mad if I told him about it and he won’t let me go thoroughly and honestly.” Kibum sighed and stare at Leeteuk, “What should we do now hyung?” Leeteuk sighed too and look at Kibum, “I don’t know Kibum ah... Let’s just go to bed and wake up early for new schedule we left tomorrow.” Kibum smile and nodded his head. He slept on Leeteuk’s bed with Leeteuk hugging him and they both went to their dream land.... Its 4 am like always and Kangin turn the knob and went in to see Leeteuk and Kibum hugging in their sleep. The anger feeling built in his heart and mind but he quickly went to his bed; tears falling down his cheek.
It was their stage performance in Music Bank and they just finished performing on stage. They are saying goodbyes to all the singers, directors etc. They’re waiting for their car to come; their director just got a call from the driver saying that it was broken down. It was intense in the waiting room; Kibum and Siwon are missing and the members are staring at one another. On the other hand, Siwon hugged Kibum tightly and he won’t stop saying sorry to Kibum. Kibum who was being hugged accept Siwon’s apologize since it’s his fault. Siwon hugged Kibum and Kibum hugged Siwon back. They walked to the waiting room smiling at each other but arriving only to hear the other member yelling; “Hyung!” or “Leeteuk hyung!” or “Teukie!” It was all mixed up. He kick the door open only too see Leeteuk on the ground; his both hands on his stomach yelling so painfully.
Waiting... how they hate waiting for the emergency to go green light from red. Worried sick; they can’t sit well. They waited and waited for about half an hour and the light turn green. The doctor came out and everyone quickly run to him “How’s he?” The doctor have a sad face. “Your friend… I’m sorry… I’m afraid... he’s gone.” Hankyung broke into tears and sobbed quietly. The doctor pat Hankyung’s shoulder and went away. “Leeteuk hyung!!!!!”
Kangin slowly approach Leeteuk who was on the bed; his face paler than ever. He looks exactly like an angel without wings. “Why didn’t you tell me Park Leeteuk?! Why the hell didn’t you tell me?! Am I not worth it?” Kangin’s sob was clear to everyone. He’s a guy who’d always pretend that he’s strong but right now, he couldn’t. He couldn’t control his anger and sadness. And right now, he doesn’t care if other people could see him like this because his angel is gone. Forever.
"I'm sorry Kangin ah..." Leeteuk whispered into the air. "I'm sorry too everyone." And he's officially gone.
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Comments appreciated:)!!
Pairing: Kangin/Leeteuk
Genre: Angst.
Warning: Death
Summary: Leeteuk didn't want Kangin to know.
Author's Note: i don't know if my readers like the pairing Kangteuk but I post this in winglin also once and I'm posting it again here. Hope you'll like it^^! Thank you for reading:)!
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“What do you mean ‘break up’ hyung?” Kangin asked Leeteuk who was standing in front of him. “We… break up Kangin.” Kangin let his hand squeeze to Leeteuk’s arm. “Why?” Leeteuk looked up, still holding back his tears. “I’m sick of our relationship. I hate the fact that I’m GAY!” That startled Kangin. His hyung never complained about their relationship before. “But you’re the one who ask me to date you!” Kangin answered harshly. “And I’m going to break up with you.” Leeteuk answered calmly.
“But hyung… don’t you love me?” Kangin’s eyes were getting wet. Even though, he was known as the strong one in the group but his heart is just like others; easily broken. “No…” Leeteuk hesitated a little. “I don’t love you…” That’s it! Kangin had enough of this. He kisses his hyung’s lips violently and trailed to his neck. “St…stop it!” Leeteuk pushes Kangin away from him and glared at him. “Did you really mean it hyung?” Leeteuk unable to answered it; nodded. “Okay then hyung,” and Kangin exited their dance studio leaving Leeteuk alone.
!!=!!=!!Leeteuk’s POV!!=!!=!!
Did I do the right thing? Is this the right choice? Breaking up with him? I miss him already… I’m sorry kangin ah… maybe it’s the best if we break up; it’ll... hurt less…
!!=!!=!!FLASHBACK!!=!!=!!(Still Leeteuk’s Pov)
It was a week ago that I was sitting on one of the bench in the hospital, waiting for my name to be called. “Park Jungsu?” The nurse looked around and I stand up. I make my way to the nurse and went in. I look at the doctor who was busy looking at some of the papers lying on his desk. “Oh, please sit down.” the doctor said. I sat down on the chair beside the table and waited patiently. The doctor then turns his head to look at me and smile. I smile back. “So… let me know about your health problem.”
I nodded and then explain that I always have stomachache and I vomited blood 3 times a day. “Hmmm…” The doctor rubbed his temple and think. “Let’s run a test on you.” The doctor stands up and I stand up too. He led me to a room next door. I saw many equipment in there and chills ran down my body. “Just lay down here.” the doctor patted the bed. I lay down my body there; hoping that everything will be fine.
After 15 minutes checking, the doctor said to just wait at his office. I walk my way to the doctor’s office and sat down. A few minutes later, the doctor came in with some paper. He sat down and then looks at me. “You have a month left to live… I’m sorry” the doctor look down at the paper. I was shocked. 1 month? I thought the doctor would say; ‘You are fine. Nothing’s wrong, you just eat some wrong food.’
“You… have a stomach cancer. It already spread to your other organs so I can only say 1 month.” I sat there dumbfounded. I was thinking; what if I die? Who would take care of the member? Who would take care of my love? Who would take care of my family? What would happen to Super Junior?
!!=!!=!! END OF FLASHBACK!!=!!=!!
I let my whole body slammed onto the ground. It hurts seeing the one you love walks away from you when you just said something horrible to him and didn’t have the chance to apologize. I cried all my heart out and screamed. I really hate this! Why should this happen to me out of all people in this world; why me? I hate the fact that I have to suffer all of this. After about an hour later, I stand on my feet feeling dizzy and walk out of the dance studio. My stomach is hurting again. I curled up on the floor beside the wall and breathe in and out. I should have just eaten my medicine so that it hurt less. I walked again with both of my hand on my stomach; rubbing it properly.
I arrived at our dorm. I went in and was greeted by Kibum who was tying his shoes; probably going out. “Teukie hyung!” he said. “I’m going to eat dinner with Siwon hyung.” He smiled. I smiled back and nodded. Then Siwon arrived from the back and asked. “Is it okay?” I smiled again. “Of course.” I walked further into the dorm and saw Kyuhyun, Donghae, Eunhyuk and Shindong playing video games. I walked into the kitchen and saw Sungmin, Hankyung, Heechul, Yesung and Ryeowook eating.“Want some Beijing rice Leeteuk hyung?” Hankyung asked. “No thanks Hannie…” I went to the fridge to take my milk. I drink it in one shot and throw the bottle into the dustbin. “You’ve been… paler lately…” Sungmin said; frowning his eyebrows. It’s true though; I’ve been paler and I feel weak all the time. “Who said I’m paler? Just your imagination Minnie.” Just as I was about to go out of the kitchen; my stomachache attacked me again and I have to vomit now. I clutched on my stomach painfully and ran to my bathroom in my room.
!!=!!=!!END OF LEETEUK’S POV!!=!!=!!
“What happen to teukie hyung?” Ryeowook asked snuggling beside Yesung. “Don’t know. Maybe sick?” All of them nodded. Eunhyuk went to the kitchen and asked why Leeteuk ran to his room. Everybody just said; SICK. “Oh… he’s always sick. Maybe we should bring him to a professional doctor.” Eunhyuk went into the kitchen and sat down. “One Beijing Rice please!” Hankyung get up and take a plate for Eunhyuk and scope some of his Beijing Rice for him. Then he gives it to Eunhyuk and Eunhyuk said ‘thank you’.
After a minutes later, the other members who was in the living room was now in the kitchen; eating. Kibum and Siwon finally went back home after eating outside. “How was the date?” Shindong asked; teasing the two of them. Kibum blushed and went back to his room. Siwon look at Kibum till he reach the room and then turn back at the members with a pout. “Ah hyung!” Shindong look at him. “What???” Siwon went to Kibum’s room and everyone look at each other.
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Leeteuk let his right hand trailed to his stomach and he squeezes his shirt. He didn’t like this. His stomachache is getting worst. He can’t go to the kitchen now; the other members were still there. Kibum knock on the door to ask Leeteuk to eat but Leeteuk didn’t answer. Kibum went in to see Leeteuk curled up on the bed. “Leeteuk hyung!” Kibum went beside Leeteuk and touches his hyung’s face. “I’m… I’m fine Kibum… Can you help me?” Kibum nodded. “Help me get my medicine in the cabinet at the kitchen please?” Kibum was about to get up when Leeteuk hold his hand. “Don’t tell anyone it’s my medicine okay?” Kibum nodded again and went to the kitchen. Kibum walked to the cabinet and take the medicine. ‘A new medicine?’ Kibum thought. Kibum close the cabinet and was about to get out of the kitchen when the members finally recognize him.
“Are you sick dongsaeng?” Heechul asked. Everyone’s attention was on Kibum now. Kibum slowly nodded. “Just a cold.” The other members nodded. Kibum walked out of the kitchen and ran to Leeteuk. Kibum help Leeteuk get up and eat his medicine. After he finishes his medicine he lay down again and thanks Kibum. Kibum nodded and sit beside his hyung. “Hyung…” Leeteuk looked at him. “Hmmm?” Kibum took the medicine bottle. “Are this new?”
Leeteuk look at the medicine bottle, then at Kibum and slowly nodded. “It says here you just buy it today. Did you see a doctor?” Leeteuk nodded. “What did he say?” Leeteuk sighed heavily. “1 month…” Kibum frowned. “1 month? What did you mean one month?” Leeteuk look at Kibum again. “I’ve got one month left Bummie…” Leeteuk sob. Kibum was shocked to hear that and the medicine bottle he was holding left his hand and crashed to the floor but luckily it didn’t spill. Kibum hugged Leeteuk tightly. “What hyung?!!! Did the doctor say it right?” Leeteuk cry on Kibum’s shoulder. “Yes Kibum ah. I don’t have much time left; the doctor said I have stomach cancer.” Leeteuk’s sob become more louder. “Did Kangin hyung know this?” Kibum let go of Leeteuk. “No… I broke up with him.” Kibum went back to his room and saw that Siwon is waiting for him on the bed; reading a book with his glasses on. “Bummie…” Siwon went to Kibum and was about to kiss him when Kibum stop him. “I’m tired; let’s just sleep…” Kibum went to his bed and lay down. Siwon just look at Kibum; dumbfounded. Siwon walk to Kibum’s bed and lay beside him and was about to wrap his arm around Kibum when Kibum refuse to.
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It’s been 1 week now and Kangin didn’t want to talk to Leeteuk. Kangin would come home at 4 am in the morning just to avoid Leeteuk. Leeteuk would cry all night knowing that Kangin is avoiding him. As well as Kibum, Siwon thought that Kibum is cheating him with Leeteuk since he already knows that the Kangteuk couple is over. “Yah Kim Kibum!” Siwon shouted at Kibum in their room. Kibum look at Siwon with a question look. “What is it Wonnie?” Siwon smirked.
“Wonnie? Oh! Don’t you ever call me that! What are you? A slut?” Kibum’s eyes widened. Siwon would never call anyone with despiteful words. “What the hell Siwon?” Siwon walked to Kibum and pinned him on the bed. “What? You think I didn’t know that you are cheating on me with Leeteuk?” Kibum struggled away from Siwon but stop when he heard that. “Th---“Siwon let go of Kibum and kiss him. “What? What is it Kibum? Tell me one specific reason so that I’ll believe you…” Siwon let go of the kiss and stare at Kibum’s eyes. “I…” Kibum remember what his hyung said about not telling anybody about it. “What Kibum?” Kibum look at Siwon and cried. Siwon was taken aback by Kibum’s action. Kibum hug Siwon and sobbed. “I’m sorry Siwon ah, let’s break up.” Siwon push Kibum away from his hug and slap Kibum. “I know you are cheating on me…” and with that last word, Siwon left and Kibum break down to the floor; crying hard. Leeteuk saw Siwon walking out of the room and was glaring at him. Leeteuk quickly went to the room to see Kibum; crying on the floor.
“Kibum ah, what happen?” Leeteuk said while comforting his back. “I...” sob “broke up...” sob “with him...” Shocked was what Leeteuk felt. Kibum sacrifice his relationship for him, how could Leeteuk left it all just like that? Leeteuk had decided that he had to tell the truth before all of this gets worse than before. Leeteuk took hold of Kibum’s hand and went to the living room of the dorm where everyone except Kangin was there. Siwon rolled his eyes and looked at the linked hands. Leeteuk sat the now calm yet quite sobbing Kibum on the sofa. He clapped both of his hands and asked the member to gather around. After everyone gathered around the living room, Leeteuk took held of his breath before he said, “I’m going to die in less than 1 month,” Every member look at each other and Sungmin suddenly blurted out, “You’re... kidding right hyung?” Leeteuk shook his head and looked at everyone seriously. “I’m not kidding... I have stomach cancer and I have less than 1 month to live,” Silence, a sad silence, Kibum who was sitting earlier is now lying down, feeling worried, Leeteuk went over to him and carry him to Leeteuk’s room. “And guys please don’t tell Kangin about this. Siwon, I’m going to keep Kibum tonight in my room.”
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“I don’t know what to say hyung... you sacrifice your biggest secret just to tell Siwon that I’m not cheating on him.” Leeteuk smile. “It’s not ‘just to’ Kibum ah. Every member should know the truth about me.” “Every member? What about Kangin hyung?” Leeteuk sighed. “Kangin would be even mad if I told him about it and he won’t let me go thoroughly and honestly.” Kibum sighed and stare at Leeteuk, “What should we do now hyung?” Leeteuk sighed too and look at Kibum, “I don’t know Kibum ah... Let’s just go to bed and wake up early for new schedule we left tomorrow.” Kibum smile and nodded his head. He slept on Leeteuk’s bed with Leeteuk hugging him and they both went to their dream land.... Its 4 am like always and Kangin turn the knob and went in to see Leeteuk and Kibum hugging in their sleep. The anger feeling built in his heart and mind but he quickly went to his bed; tears falling down his cheek.
It was their stage performance in Music Bank and they just finished performing on stage. They are saying goodbyes to all the singers, directors etc. They’re waiting for their car to come; their director just got a call from the driver saying that it was broken down. It was intense in the waiting room; Kibum and Siwon are missing and the members are staring at one another. On the other hand, Siwon hugged Kibum tightly and he won’t stop saying sorry to Kibum. Kibum who was being hugged accept Siwon’s apologize since it’s his fault. Siwon hugged Kibum and Kibum hugged Siwon back. They walked to the waiting room smiling at each other but arriving only to hear the other member yelling; “Hyung!” or “Leeteuk hyung!” or “Teukie!” It was all mixed up. He kick the door open only too see Leeteuk on the ground; his both hands on his stomach yelling so painfully.
Waiting... how they hate waiting for the emergency to go green light from red. Worried sick; they can’t sit well. They waited and waited for about half an hour and the light turn green. The doctor came out and everyone quickly run to him “How’s he?” The doctor have a sad face. “Your friend… I’m sorry… I’m afraid... he’s gone.” Hankyung broke into tears and sobbed quietly. The doctor pat Hankyung’s shoulder and went away. “Leeteuk hyung!!!!!”
Kangin slowly approach Leeteuk who was on the bed; his face paler than ever. He looks exactly like an angel without wings. “Why didn’t you tell me Park Leeteuk?! Why the hell didn’t you tell me?! Am I not worth it?” Kangin’s sob was clear to everyone. He’s a guy who’d always pretend that he’s strong but right now, he couldn’t. He couldn’t control his anger and sadness. And right now, he doesn’t care if other people could see him like this because his angel is gone. Forever.
"I'm sorry Kangin ah..." Leeteuk whispered into the air. "I'm sorry too everyone." And he's officially gone.
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Comments appreciated:)!!