I’ve all but caught up on my much needed sleep, although I think the affects are still there. The guy fixing the mall’s cameras was being rude to me over the radio today at work while I dealt with Lakewood and marijuana; C&C Market Research calling about their damn internet; and channel one. I was also multi-tasking. I was busy and he was being so ( Read more... )

It was a very tough day, and I am very drained. However, unlike last night, I can actually focus. Tournament was today. I felt cheated. I did not place in sparring, demo team, kata, or sword. It was very hard work to school my emotions when I felt the tears form at every lost. I did not cry, fortunately. I was performing with people who were ( Read more... )

Hit the minute snooze button ten times. Meant to get up after the tenth time, but I accidentally dozed for ten extra minutes until it was a couple of minutes until nine. Looked at the time, realizing that I only had thirty-two minutes to get ready before work. Hurried during my shower and finding something to eat. Went to work. Changed into uniform ( Read more... )

It’s very strange to think that I can easily make people laugh. I’ve never considered myself as a comedian. When I’m writing, humor is the hardest part. Yet, there are things that I say that have everyone laughing. I am reminded of an end of shift conversation. Jose was trying to start a play fight and I said, “Bring it on. I’ve been learning how ( Read more... )

I’ve come to realize that love is the greatest mystery. Two of my potential dating partners have been demoted to friends. One of them was Jacob. He has a sexual assault history, and while I feel guilty in using that against him, I can’t let it harm any relationship we might have had and it would have. I would be too afraid to be in any room with ( Read more... )

Another day complete with drama. This time it was drama having to do with Jacob. For the second time in less than a week, I was “stood up”. Jacob slept through the date and I was pissed off. I keep on getting stood up. Sure, the last two times are forgivable, but still. Jacob felt seriously horrible about it, but I was actually quite relieved. I ( Read more... )

I go a few day without updating and I have a bunch to say. I haven’t wanted to update these past few nights; in fact, I seem to be unfocused in all areas of my life ( Read more... )

You know how I said that I wanted to experience that feeling that says “This is the one; the search is over!”? I didn’t even get to experience the depression that resulted from the lack of it. For the second time in my life, I was stood up. The first time was Freshman Homecoming, by a boy named Sullivan. I had gotten all gusty up. I had a beautiful ( Read more... )

I always like to learn about people’s particularities and oddities. No one is really “normal”. There’s always something odd about them. Sometimes, my characters inherit these oddities. Today, I found out an oddity about myself. I love fruit, I really do. However, I can not stand apples when they are whole. Something is off about them. Yet, when ( Read more... )

ook List of 2008 (in order of the best to worst ( Read more... )