Long Time Gone

[sapphorlando]

I don't actually remember exactly when I stopped posting to LJ. It was not planned. It just sort of happened, and not all at once. I mean, obviously, the posts stopped coming at some discrete point. (And no, I haven't bothered to look up exactly when; it's only academic, after all.) I mean, it was only after a good while that I sat up and realised

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[makimonster]

Hello. :) I know what you mean, I'm the same way. I often delete my LJ and then bring it back to catch up with friends. I am sorry to hear about your mother passing. My father passed in late May of this year. It was something we somewhat anticipated, but as you said... I feel the same way. I hope that you have been doing okay.

[sapphorlando]

This was also anticipated; even my mother seemed unsurprised. But of course real life is not like the movies, and it was awful in its own ways. Part of coming to terms with it is the way I continue to question my own actions at that time, though I know that there's very little I could have done differently or would have thought reason to. I still find it difficult to write about, and even talk about with most people, but I don't really know why. That's the part I still need to work out.

I didn't intend to quit LJ, I just kind of segued into a lifestyle with less and less LJ, until I realised I'd been gone a long while. I still value LJ as a quieter and more thoughtful corner of the Internet, where grown-ups can hang out while kids play elsewhere.