when people ask me how a relationship with God works, i often tell them, "its like any other friendship. you talk to Him as often as possible. when He is not in your presence, you feel empty. He conforts you when you are upset, and He lifts you up when you have fallen. you let Him know what you are feeling, and what is going on in your life. when ( Read more... )

i will no longer be using this journal! i will not have a new one either! all i do is hurt the people i care about the most and dishonor the name of my Lord and Savior Jesus Chrsit! how dare i have my name as sarabear4christ when i say those awful things!? to everyone that was hurt by this journal, please forgive me! and may the Lord forgive me as ( Read more... )

this is such crap! i didnt go to bible study tonite, because i didnt feel right going and i had other reasons that are nobody elses business, and now people are mad at me! WTF?! that is not fair that people treat me poorly because i missed one bible study! i feel like i am not allowed to be down or even have feelings or emotions! i dont have to ( Read more... )

one thing i ask for is that my feelings are taken seriously. i have my feelings for a reason, and nobody will be able to fix them or understand them becuz they are in my head and heart. and unless you are in there too, you will not understand. everyone sees things and feels things and deals with things. if i deal with issues differently i am sorry ( Read more... )

so i have to admitt that i had a good time tonight. i think i was having a sugar high or something...... but sarah, ally, and regina..... thanks! it felt good to smile for a change. unfortunately it had to end.... now back to reality. but i have decided that i am going to keep my problems and feelings to myself. i dont need people to worry about me ( Read more... )

so i am doing a lot better today after totally venting! i am still kinda stressed with stuff to do but tomorrow i am teaching sunday school with erin and i am way pumped about it! speaking of being pumped.... this is kind of random but i really miss cheerleading or dancing! i want to take a hip hop class so freaking bad!!!! but i know that i ( Read more... )

okay, now i am even way more pissed off then before! i totally worte out this whole thing and then i accidentally erased it all! damn it!!

so as i WAS saying is that i hate that bitch tiffany! still! who the fuck does she think she is? hell i dont even know who she is anymore!  jt is totally gonna fuck her and dump her and i am going to laugh in ( Read more... )

hey so i am way tired right now but the girls are being all wild and crazy and i cant sleep when i know something is going on! and a lot of them dont have class tomorrow, but i do! and i still dont feel good! i am way sick and it sucks! i would love to not go to class again tomorrow but i cant keep missing class! so tonite i went to simple faith ( Read more... )

i hate being sick! grrrr! i had to miss soup kitchen with OSPRIG today becuz i dont want to be rude and pread my germies! but i am not missing brad tonite, for hump day movie, we are watching Troy! woohoo! but that still doesnt change the fact that i feel like crap! and i have a butt load of homework for Core and spanish! Lady gave us this insane ( Read more... )

ok wow i am in the weirdest mood! everything is funny, and i have the munchies, but i am not stoned!!! which is kinda nifty seeing as how i can act like i am and not have relaps! woohoo! so i am kinda sad in my heart! adam wasnt at CRU tonite! good thing i didnt dress up like i was planning! that just would have made me mad! you know what i mean! ( Read more... )