I am not going to say cheer up. People keep telling you to your face that everything will be alright. Well its not going to be alright. It won't be alright until you decide you are going to take responsiblity for your own actions. Until you stand up and do the things that have to be done to get yourself to a better place. You have many of the right goals (going to school, loving your children...) but you are not taking the actions to improve your life. those actions are the hardest part. those actions are getting up when you are so tired you can't keep your eyes open and going to class. Those actions are doing those things you don't want to because you don't have the energy. Those actions are more hard than anything else you can do but that is the only way to make yourself into the things I see you say you want to be. I think you can do it the question is will you
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May 23 2004, 22:31:01 UTC
LIFE SUCKS, GET FUCKIN USED TO IT. STOP FUCKIN FEELIN SORRY AND BITCHING. SURE WE DONT KNOW YOU ALL THAT WELL BUT, FROM WHAT WE KNOW WE DO LIKE. I LIKE YOU CAUSE YOUR THE PERSON YOU ARE. EVEN WHEN YOU DONT COME TO MY SHOW AND MAKE FUN OF HOW HORRIBLE MY BAND IS, OR HOW HORRIBLE MY PHOTOGRAPHER IS. AS PREVIOUSLY POSTED, TAKE RESPONSIBILTY. I HAD TO AFTER LAST SEMESTER AND THEN I FUCKIN PASSED THIS SEMESTER. THINGS ARE TOUGH. KATY AND I WENT ALL LAST WEEK ON FUCKIN A BOX OF AUGRATIN POTATOS AND 3 CANS OF CAMPBELL SOUP. WE HARDLY MAKE IT BY BECAUSE OF THE CHOICES I'VE MADE. THINGS GET WORSE BEFORE BETTER, SO DONT CHEER UP, GET OFF YOUR ASS AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT...
I do love you. Even though you're a butthead and went to a Larp so I couldn't hang out with you all weekend. That aside, you don't appear as bad ass to everyone as you think you do. At least not to me. I see a person I wanna hang with inside you. We all have these moments of utter disgust with ourselves. It'll pass.
I absolutely, in no way, shape, or form, feel sorry for myself. Every decision I have made in life was a competent, conscious decision that typically involved a good analytical process beforehand. Every one. So it isn't like I am lying down and "woe is me"ing.
Heathie, honey, I never ragged on your band. I would very much like to hear your band one of these days :D I wish I could have come to your show, but we ended up leaving for Indianapolis. It was pretty important - Frank's job. And Marek has salmonella - he had to visit the State Health Department. I really wanted to be there.
I thought Varas called you. We got to Indy late and couldn't find anyone. I tried calling Hobbs and Tori but apparently their number has changed. Since it was so late and I couldn't be late for work again, he just came down to Kentucky with me. We figured since you all were coming down to Five Oaks this weekend that he could just go back up then. I didn’t really want to leave him stranded in Indy since I couldn’t seem to a hold of anyone. You guys are still coming down, right? And you should bring Marek! I miss the little critter. He really is as adorable as you all said he was. I know Varas is about to go crazy cause he misses him so much.
Oh kaka. We aren't going to the Five Oaks dealie. We're stuck. seriously.
We stayed in Indianapolis until this morning, strangely enough. We had lots to do. While you guys were being late :P we had gone to a hotel to hang out for a really long time. Wish you could have been there. Was bikini goodness.
Oh...oh...I feel so left out now. Damnit. Had I only known! *sigh* I always miss the good stuff. I wish I would've known which hotel you guys were at. I'm glad you all had fun though. If only I hadn't been too drunk to drive Saturday night.
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I absolutely, in no way, shape, or form, feel sorry for myself. Every decision I have made in life was a competent, conscious decision that typically involved a good analytical process beforehand. Every one. So it isn't like I am lying down and "woe is me"ing.
Heathie, honey, I never ragged on your band. I would very much like to hear your band one of these days :D I wish I could have come to your show, but we ended up leaving for Indianapolis. It was pretty important - Frank's job. And Marek has salmonella - he had to visit the State Health Department. I really wanted to be there.
Owl. Good show, bro.
Fawn - WHERE ARE YOU GUYS? :(
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We aren't going to the Five Oaks dealie. We're stuck. seriously.
We stayed in Indianapolis until this morning, strangely enough. We had lots to do. While you guys were being late :P we had gone to a hotel to hang out for a really long time. Wish you could have been there. Was bikini goodness.
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It was hilarious times. We spent way too much time bullshitting. Just....hanging out.
It was very relaxing.
We were going to play strip poker, but me and Tori saw the hot tub and got naked prematurely.
Wish you could have comeeeeee
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