I'm bored.  It's like 630 and Hughie doenst get out of work till like 930 or 10.  His work schedual is the devil.  I may take a nap.  Who knows ( Read more... )

My friend Sarah just broke off her engagment. She has been with this guy for five years and engaged for one. Her wedding was supposed to be this upcoming May. The 13th I believe. And now, none of it is going to happen. And I mean she's taking this all very well. I mean she cries and shes upset but you can see in her face that she knows its ( Read more... )

My Daddy totally redeamed himself. When I wrote the last entry, I really didn't know what to do... I didn't know if our relationship would ever be decent. I mean I was really hurt and dumbfounded by the whole thing. I just couldn't understand how I could pour myself out like that, more than I ever have before with him, and get such an empty ( Read more... )

Why can;t I have at least one good one? You are given two parents so that if one fucks up, you have the other to lean on. Mone both fucked me royaly and equally. And even though my dad is still around and I love him for that, hes continuing to hurt me, well aware of the fact that he is doing so. I told him about moving her freaks out, I go on ( Read more... )

Crap. So I was watching Grey's the other day and the contents of that particular episode really has had an effect on me. Meredith was walking by a room and the old lady in the room was like, you know, dieing, I mean right then, she was dieing. So Meredith did what any doctor would do, and saved her. The old lady's friends were peeved though. ( Read more... )

I fucking still love him. The dreams stopped, though. It was so weird. For almost a month I was having dreams literally every other night that he came to me and wanted us to be together and I would ask him "What about Andrea?" and he'd blow it off and we'd be together. And then I had a dream about her. We were friends, I was happy for her, I'd ( Read more... )

I feel like since Ive gotten back from California, my life has been a wreck. Before I went I felt like I was becomeing so comfortable in my life and in my skin and with all these new, amazing people. And then I left. And now Im back, and nothings the same. Its so weird. I dont know how to put it back, make it different again. And the thing is ( Read more... )

So, its apoximatly 2:50AM, and I can't sleep- as usual. And I started to think about when I used to be able to sleep well...it was whe I was with Rob. I had a toatl sleep schedual, and I'd be sleeping by like 11 and asdorky as that may be - I lovedit. I feltso much better in life in generalgettingasmuch sleep as I need. And I am getting used to ( Read more... )

I went down to the beach today by myself to watch the fireworks. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but at the same time, it was torture. Earlier today I was mainly just upset that I didnt have any friends here with me right now because it would be so much more fun if I had someone to experience all of this with. But then I thought about ( Read more... )

For some reason I'm having a really rough day today. I'mjust emotionally drained and sad and depressed and I dont like it. I'm in California and its the Fourth of the Lie and all these people are down by the beach and I wanna go but I mean what would I do? I mean I know I'm in California and I dont know anybody here, but I'm having like a ( Read more... )