So he is now gone. I am now very single. I don't really like it all that much. At least I am free to get off of my knees for awhile.

I cannot decide if i even have a right to feel like this or not.

The fifth week is a heavy weight on my shoulders. What happened? I think it was conversations that ended with, "Let's continue this later". When is later?

I have only known you for four weeks and I already want to tie on my lacey apron and bake you brownies wtih pecans and caramel. When you can start to smell them dancing out of the oven that means they are almost done, right? Are you almost done?

Nothing bad has happened lately. I did not figure out why I have more minutes on the weekend but I know that I do. It is no longer a reflection on my state of mind. I now have a job, which really pisses me off. I want to not show up tomorrow. I want to go somewhere again...my bones ache for warm weather and palm trees. I want to hear birds ( Read more... )

I guess I don't know shit and my opinions don't count. Have you ever met those kind of people? Ewe...I like people that don't judge you until you do something to them personally. I feel like I am being jugded by what I like...NOT who I am. Exodus 3:13 " God Said, "I am who I am". So, GET OVER IT!!!

Perhaps Kirsten was right and it is all over. All the fun...ALL THE SADNESS! I had my well anticipated job interview today. Everything went really well but then he said he would, "Give me a call". I can hear Gilbert saying, "What the fuck"? He has to check my references and do a credit check. All this bullshit so I can work for a little over ( Read more... )

Where have you been? I am starving...

Friday Night...How did I get that drunk? Why do I always feel so old after 4 drinks and a mean buzz? By the time I got home clothes went all over the floor and a bed was made in front of the TV and sleep came quickly, until the phone rang. I answered, we chatted. After 3 minutes I was back asleep and awake again to another phone call. This ( Read more... )

I have friends with babies, friends in college, friends with jobs, friends with girlfriends/boyfriends. I don't have any friends like me...unemployed and useless. I don't want to find a job, I don't want a baby, I don't want to go to college, and I don't want a girlfriend/boyfriend. I just wish my days could consist of getting ready at 9pm, and ( Read more... )