lately you've been off, honey, have you noticed ( Read more... )

Because I do love you, so very much. But when I walk away from you my hands are empty and my heart is sad. I feel your lackluster attempt and bricks fall before me.
I hear the voices in the sky
Dusting away all the distractions, what do we find underneath.
Are we there still, is there an us? The future is scary.
I didn't guard my heart, I left it ( Read more... )

Its funny how random conversations turn into something...so much bigger
Hitting you in the gut like a ton of bricks.

It can bring things up, bring reality back on to the playing field.
Im not damaged, just a lot of war wounds.

And you find yourself chanting your mantra's over and over again
Just to make sure you stay put together.Because the ( Read more... )

I can't get on live journal right now---out of order

Am I really though? Always

today was unproductive. Lots of ideas, always coming

always pushing me in the opposite direction

of what you want me to be.

Life has been a lot like driving lately

my wheels just keep spinning

but I haven't even left the drivewayI know I'm being my own worst ( Read more... )

Thats all behind us now, and while we closed the cover on a very long book the ending was a huge disappointment. The tears followed me into my dreams, greeted me with the sun and will have a recurring role in today's activities....I mean work.

We swam so long to get to the shore, only to drown a few feet away from safety.

....I asked her for some happy news...
For the record, I get it, I only post depressing, contemplative, dark stuff....I must sound like a total bummer.
But  98% of the time I am really very happy. I smile a whole lot. I love giving hugs and being silly and all together making merriment.

Despite the lack of noise there is a huge party going on in here.

The days are getting longer and while I thrive on the sun something feels off...something is missing ( Read more... )

I've always appreciated defiance...that is when it doesn't mess with my agenda..
Admitting I have an agenda makes me sound like a villian. I'm not, I'm just another girl out there trying to make it in the world fighting her own inner battle.

we glamorized the past to feel accomplished
to proud to admit we were just
killing time.

a bullion cube from a broth of words
the paragraphs boil down to just

one line.

oh no sir, think about that.

Yeah Im stronger than that, and I know i'll survive this but I'd rather live through it