crap.

[sarah_face]

Cody turns 21 today. How awesome, ;) We'll finally be allowed to have alcohol in our house. Well, partially. I can get in trouble still, but I guess we can always chalk it up to the fact that he is 21 and I am not

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[throatchestback]

i'm sorry to hear about your auntie sarah (hugs)

[sarah_face]

thanks trishie.

i'm just upset and i'm overwhelmed.
i don't know if i can handle this.

i'm already all gay and depressed because i'm away from cody.
i don't know if i can take the death of my aunt on top of that.

fuck illinois!

[nixxxon]

aww honey thats so hard.

My mom died of the same thing 8 months ago. She fought it like hell too for 6 years.
Sometimes I look back and wonder if the chemo and all the painful treatments she put herself through was worth it. I wonder if she should have just skipped the treatments and gone out and did everything she ever wanted to do instead of just laying in bed. And it kills me inside everytime I think about it. As this point the only advice I can really give you is try not to think about how it could have been different. It's really hard not to, but to some degree we have to realize that we can't change things like that and just take care of ourselves in our time right now.

As for saying goodbye, I don't know. I never got the chance to. But I loved her more than I love anyone else. I still do. And it still hurts, and it's always going to hurt a little bit.

But it will get better, I promise.

Take care hon.
<3 SarYah

[sarah_face]

Awe SarYah, thanks so much for the advice.
glad to hear from you.