oh it's so hard to love when love was your great disappointment

[sarahcorti]

Here's a long, not too great story told nice and short:

I got deferred.

So here's to months of anxiety and waiting until April and dreading the uncertainty of my future.

PS. I got into Emmanuel. At least I have my safety. Today's been a day called bittersweet.

Comments

[slpwalkerswaltz]

It won't be months of anxiety, although yes, it will be months of waiting.

But you're into college. You have a place to belong and you still have all the talent and ability you had before Brown's decision.

The future is uncertain, but it is by no means dark.

I love you. Don't dread what's to come.

[februaryfifteen]

It's all alright. It just means we have to do work for Senior year now. Jeez. Sorry I'm not from New Orleans/Seth Cohen. Whatever.

But keep me posted! Where else are you applying?

[februaryfifteen]

Before, I wasn't planning on applying anywhere else.

NOW I have to fill out (roughly in order of preference): Harvard, JHU, MIT, Yale, RPI, Connecticut, Tufts, BU, and maybe UPenn

But I don't want to.
I don't understand. I think I've moved from acceptance to disbelief. Brown recruited me for computer science. Now they're deferring me? I don't understand.

It's going to be a very long wait until the Spring.

[oh_jenny]

HEY!
i looked at emmanuel.
shan still thinks i should go there.
a little late for that.
sorry miss sarah about the deferred,
don't worry about it sweety,

you're smart you'll do great things.