I'm going to be on the train in two hours
for four hours and then twenty minutes in a car
just to sit in my room and wait for the next train ride back.

I'm listening to Avril again. 
If I unconditionally loved Avril Lavigne's music
and believed every word and could relate
I know my life would be a much better place
It's a shame, really.
We could learn a ( Read more... )

 So I was listening to the Rena Surprise Birthday song

and Rena's like "What are you listening to?"
And I'm like "Nothing"
and she like, grabbed my headphones
and I like, grabbed them back
and they like, FUCKING SNAPPED INTO TWO PIECES

and they're like, hundred dollar headphones
and this is why people shouldn't ever have expensive things
because when they ( Read more... )

Jan. 12
flash from da past.

[MARC]: Wish that we didn't have to go about things this way. says: (12:50:16 PM)
i love that you call them scarf people
because all the hipsters here wear scarves. it's great.

sarah vee says: (12:50:46 PM)
hipsters everywhere wear scarfs
do you have a scarf?

[MARC]: Wish that we didn't have to go about things this way. says: ( ( Read more... )

 the song went really well
I was so nervous when I went over there
My voice was shaky but the melodies flowed
My throat was dry but the message got across
look at me
I'm a damn musician.
we'll show Rena who's boss ;)

 I know you're watching me // I can feel you through my windows //I know you feel me //I can taste you in my coffee //I know you want me //I can hear it in your silence //I know you're moving //I know your heart is still beating
out of key, out of tune, out there
somewhere.

I know you're thinking about my heart beat I know you're wondering if I'm ( Read more... )

Remember sitting by the showers
with the cold water running
sipping the last of our iced caps?

Remember when you caught me
pulling my stitches apart?

Remember when I lost the stitch 
in your bed
and you were all "OCD RAWR"

Remember when I shaved my head
and you thought I was beautiful?

Remember when my life was a fail
but you made it ok?

I remember, baby doll
I ( Read more... )

update

I miss you I miss you I miss you.

I caught a glimpse of a raver on the train.
She didn't notice/remember me. 
I was plastic hair and sparkles. Not a person, anyways.
Can't blame her.

Mom's going to A.A now. Because apparently she's an alcoholic.

Talked to the homeless guy up on my street.
Is it bad that I'd rather spend the day with him than spend ( Read more... )

I keep waiting for you to move
like a fish in the ocean
you barely ever touch the surface
you never let me see your rainbow scales

I want to swim with you
but I'll drown
so this is goodbye
until I learn to breathe under water

my body must hate me

Curl up to Tori even if the couch is too small for the both of us. Can't be alone. Not now.
Fall asleep at around five, get up at seven. My neck hurts. My eyes are itchy.
Haven't eaten again but I'm not hungry. It's weird to feel full when you're empty.
I drink coffee. Black. No ice. I burn my tongue. Should've gotten ice.
It's ( Read more... )

oh and also
I'm a big loser who loves to scrap book
come visit me and we can look at my scrap book togetha.
It's pretty much amazing.