How I feel about my cancer

[sarahf]

So...lots of people say "fuck cancer." It even has its own hashtag. #fuckcancer after all. And "I hate cancer." I hear that a lot. With varying degrees of intensity

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Kathleen Gilles Seidel

[anonymous]

I got cold during chemo sessions. So I took heavy socks and gloves. Of course you are cold from the inside out, not the usual vice-versa. I also liked having headphones. Some of the caregivers who were there with patients wanted to chat more than I wanted to.

Re: Kathleen Gilles Seidel

[sarahf]

Yes! Socks, gloves, arm warmers, hand warmers, all packed! Headphones are on the list. :) Thank you!

[charliecochrane]

You are no freak!

You have to find your own way to cope with illness; it's an individual thing, like grief. No two people react to loss the same and no-one should expect them to; same in this instance.

Not sure if that makes any sense outside my head, but xxxxx from me.

[sarahf]

Thank you! xxxxx back to you! <3

[ext_3343255]

One of the things I really admire about you, Sarah, is your level-headedness. You're amazingly able to look at situations without spinning out endless stories about them--or maybe you're able to see yourself spinning out the stories and not get all caught up in them? Whatever it is, it's a gift. Your mantra from the first diagnosis onward has been "it's a thing," and the lack of an adjective there (not a horrible thing, not a sad thing, not an unfair thing) is a big deal. Because it may indeed be all sorts of adjectives, but those don't really make a difference: in the end, it's a thing, and you're doing what you have to do, and even if you'll be scared and tired you'll just do it, because it needs to be done.

As for #fuckcancer, I prefer #Hasadigaeebowai," from The Book of Mormon, but I don't think it will catch on!

Hugs from Chicago!