I want to spend the rest of my life with one inparticular person...but i know i can't do that, so i really need to move on.

it seems like i think of you everytime i lie down, every time i wake up; i see you and i want to cry. i cry myself to sleep every night because i know i can't have you. this is the hardest relationship that i have ever had to get over. i don't even know what to do anymore. i try not to think about you, but you are all that i think about. i hope you ( Read more... )

so i guess i should update now...considering my life has changed a lot since the last time i updated...I don't really want to go into detail, but if you really want to know what happened you can ask me, and i might tell you what happened. whoever said words don't hurt lied...thats all i gotta say. and i do understand that i did some hurting as well ( Read more... )

FUCK THIS. (not in a good mood)

I am so damn bored it is ridiculous...I have homework and stuff to do but I just am not in the mood to do it. I just talked to Matt Reese. :) That was nice. I haven't talked to him in a while. It sucks that he is going to Iraq... :( That's sad. I don't like the idea of a friend of mine going to war. I am scared for him a lot. He is calling me or ( Read more... )

I'm depressed. I feel like my life sucks. Like, everyone that I know is moving forward in their life, while I've been in the same place for 2 or 3 years. I have friends that are already married, getting married soon, or are engaged. Some already have kids. I feel like I should be doing this too. I dunno ( Read more... )

today, already, i can tell its going to suck. i thought i was going to have one of my imfamous (sp?) dizzy spells, but i think that blew over, we'll see though, i still don't feel very well. I got up this morning at 7 and got ready to go. i took a shower put my makeup on and everything, was ready by 740 and then thought i was going to have my dizzy ( Read more... )

My personal world map


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Im trying to write a paper for my American Culture Studies class and I have no idea what to write. erg... My prompt is: write an essay about a specific instance where you felt especially aware of your own gender identity. thats it. i have no idea. i have another one that i can write about but i dont know what to write for that one either. i know of ( Read more... )

I'm so bummed. I've been in a bad mood for about 3 days now. I just don't even want to talk to anyone anymore. I think it's just because I want to move out of the dorm so bad. Terry and I found a couple of apartments that we are going to look at in Perrysburg and in Maumee. We looked at one yesterday that was kinda nice. I could live there. We were ( Read more... )