i keep having these really intense, graphic and realistc dreams about my bosses dying. it's really strange. it isn't like i am full of hate towards them, in fact i really like them both and i feel vaguely guilty for what a shitty employee i am... but my one boss has a serious kidney problem and i dreampt that he died before his every second day ( Read more... )

i could care less about halloween this year. in keeping with a growing trend of not caring about reasons to party, I feel really boring. I enjoy halloween every year usually, but I am honestly just not excited. I was thinking about handing candy out to kids, but I don't even get home until around 6, so I'll miss the littl'uns. Plus, I'd have to ( Read more... )

well, i officially am enjoying the lifestyle of tea drinking and reading as opposed to coffee drinking(this i am telling myself), cigarette smoking and drinking. well, that is all true. i have been avoiding caffeine, sugar, wheat and alcohol. even fermented things. not all together cut out, just avoiding. i notice it so much when i eat these things ( Read more... )

my student loan finally came through ( Read more... )

an uncharateristic posi post ( Read more... )

i was just thinking to myself- why is that so many young men who i meet and then date are in a totally different scene then i am? why does it seem like a good idea to do this? to avoid the intense inbreeding... erhhmm...whatever... or a scene? cause i don't really have a scene? cause i find disturbing gender roles attractive (by disturbing here i ( Read more... )

school is supposed to make us feel better and smarter about ourselves? i feel left behind and like i have no idea what is going on. i think i might buy some sort of "how to organize your life" books and follow it to the tee ( Read more... )

i am still waiting for my student loans. it is stupid. bills are piling up. i am basically fucked, which makes for a less then awesome feeling. i try to concentrate on working, and i think i am doing a little better. but it is hard. but i am lucky, assuming i do eventually get those loans, to be doing this. i feel so unblievably stupid about so ( Read more... )

school is awesome. student loans are not. i burnt my tongue. and all i want is naps everyday. and like real naps.and to listen to sweet indie rock. this means fall has come ( Read more... )

i wastched bridget jones' diary the other day and was startled to notice how much hugh grant's character of daniel clever reminds me of my ex boyfriend. this made me both totally excited that i was dating someone like hugh grant always plays, and horribly dissapointed to realize what the implications of dating someone who is like hugh grant ( Read more... )