For the first time in six years, I had an external job interview today. I'm not sure how it went, since I've been a horrible judge on the internal jobs I applied for at Creek. I had really hoped to advance at Creek, but it looks like that's just not in the cards for me. I told myself last year that if I didn't make salary, I'd be out the door, ( Read more... )

I had my mini break-down on Wednesday, complete with crying at my desk. Thursday I started my period, which made me feel a little better. Perhaps some of my neuroticism was just hormones ( Read more... )

I really feel depressed. And you would think, if I can recognize this feeling, that I should do something about it...it's just...I over analyze. Close friends that I've tried to turn to for advice and for comfort and to bounce my ideas off of ask what could I be depressed about? I have a multitude of feelings going on, depression, stress, ( Read more... )

I think Leslie thinks we're in trouble. I don't think we're in major trouble. We had the potential to be in major trouble, but I thought and rethought things through with a clear mind. I do love her, although ever since Danni's return, Leslie is amazingly insecure and jealous. I guess that's understandable, and I guess it would be easiest if I ( Read more... )

If you know me, than you would know that I always try to be a realist, in every situation. I try not to sugarcoat anything to myself. If I know I'm morbidly obese, I'll say it. I don't say I need to lose "a little weight" when the truth is I need to lose a LOT of weight. If my son is misbehaving, I don't say it's due to a boring classroom, or ( Read more... )

I try not to make rash decisions. Every decision needs to be well thought out. I agonized over leaving Cortney for months. M O N T H S. Sometimes I feel like I didn't try hard enough. How do you walk out on a marriage? How do you marry someone, commit to LIFE with them, and then throw it all away? But I did. I had been with Cortney since I ( Read more... )

So, I had my another internal interview for a different position. Although I felt like the interview went well, I fully realize they had this candidate picked before the interviews even began. The job that I interviewed for on Monday, the Director of the Department told me that it was going to be posted externally, but it has yet to do so. By ( Read more... )

As I drove to class tonight, I remembered how much I hate driving in 5:00 traffic, and how much I loathe the right hand lane of 169. It's just go, stop, go, stop, and I can't stand it ( Read more... )

Today, I had another one of those days where I feel like I want to blog everyday, and I'm a bit jealous of the people that feel confident enough to leave their thoughts and words out for the world to read. I want to do that, maybe it's the exhibitionist in me, but I don't do it. I'm always guarded, always trying to protect other people's feelings ( Read more... )

From Oklahoma State Rep Sally Kern...