BANDOM NOSTALGIA

Jun 09, 2011 03:14

So, okay, I should've been asleep hours ago, but in the midst of some bedtime Merlin fandom lurking, I came across this instead:

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AND THEN I GOT REALLY SAD.

Because, see, I fell out of bandom a long, long time ago, mostly from the divorce but also for a lot of reasons in the months leading up to that, and I just-- *helpless shrug* haven't kept up with the boys' bands at all. I still occasionally listen to Panic's first two albums--

(Actually, I've been listening to a lot of Pretty. Odd. lately 'cause it's summer and that will always be a summer album for me, and I was just playing it last week whilst reminiscing w/thismuchmore about the time we tried to do a drinking game to the number of times they sing "moon" on that album and it was quite possibly the drunkest we'd been in our lives.)

--but the ways in which I still know these dudes is entirely set pre-divorce. Yeah, I heard "New Perspective" and I gave a brief listen to The Young Veins when they first put up demos, but that was the extent of it. So, this video of all things getting to me like this? I mean, yes, (1) Don't Stop Believin' on a good day by anyone else makes me a bit emotional, so (2) watching/hearing it sung by Brendon Urie, who was once upon a time among my favourite singers, is just a bit much. But... IDK it's not like I'm weeping over here, but it does still hurt, even after two years, even after I'd thought it was an ache & certain kind of bitterness that had mostly gone away.

I still don't think I'm ready to listen to a Panic that isn't Brendon/Ryan/Spencer/Jon, BUT I do miss that Panic & bandom I once knew. SUCH AS:

Remember the interviews where it seemed like their sole purpose for being there was just to flirt with each other & make themselves laugh? And by "the interviews" I do mean EVERY INTERVIEW THEY DID TOGETHER. Here, have a couple:

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(Would you say this is NOT a hobbit scarf?)

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Remember when the boys gave us THIS BATSHIT SILLY SURPRISE for Halloween and, not for the first or last time, we were all like HOW ARE THEY EVEN REAL?

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Or how about right after that, when I saw them just days before President Obama was elected, and it was the most magical week all year because, hey, American hope in my eyes AND my favourite boys-in-love making music together! and I couldn't imagine them ever breaking up, even wishing my futurefic would come true.

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And rmember when THESE TWO were my OTP? But really it was the first fandom in which OT4 or any variation within that made perfect sense to me and people kept writing really wonderful fic ALL THE TIME?


IDK maybe I need to finish all my old unfinished Panic fics as therapy. Or I just need to re-focus on Bradley James being a beautiful dork and everything will be shiny again. Any other bandom folks, I know I've been gone a long time, but stop by, please, talk Panic with me. ♥

video, panic at the disco, bandom, music

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