and I forgot! For the last week or so I've had this weird feeling like I'm going to die soon.
I don't know how or when but it just seems like it's going to happen... I have this feeling and it's all I can think about sometimes. I'm not scared, it's not like I'm terrified - it's just that it's there.
So my long term pretend-boyfriend just got a DUI - and I feel so relieved cause for so long I punished myself for being a horrible person who'd get a DUI... but I mean, if Shia did it... I'm suddenly okay with it.