So the next few days will be pretty busy for me at least. I'm helping my church with painting murals to transform the place into a beach for their bible camp for the kiddies. It'll be a lot of fun but pretty time consuming as well ( Read more... )

This evening has been utterly miserable and a reminder of my many, many regrets. It started shortly after work when a debt collector for one of my private student loans called. Ugh...as many know I'm struggling with the finances and Sallie Mae decided not to tell me about this particular loan and well let's just say I wound up having to borrow ( Read more... )

Been doodling a bit today so I'll share a bit. Everything is worksafe and mostly silly...well kinda grr but it made me feel silly.

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I'm glad I didn't get called into work today and was able to go to church. The service really hit home for me as I have been feeling so incredibly alone and just broken. In truth I've been miserable thinking I must be just an untouchable something to be used but nothing to be treasured or cared about. Silly...but trying to convince yourself alone ( Read more... )

Today while not unpleasant was tough emotionally for some reason. I was at work, it was going great I even picked up an extra shift since I had to call in yesterday...but I couldn't seem to keep my head off my damned ex. I don't know if it was because I was in the men's department and seeing things that I would normally want to buy for him or what ( Read more... )

Good God but I have felt like crap for the last day or so. Last night especially was unbearable...I don't know what is causing the pain but it feels like I've been trying to digest pins and needles in my gut. I mean I could feel it moving through my intestines all freaking night long...it bizarre to feel a sensation moving acutely through you in an ( Read more... )

I dislike feeling unproductive yet unable to do anything constructive to appease the desire to do something! I've been trying to draw...and yeah I can't say that's been terribly successful unless you count drawing simple cute things and splashing a bit of marker on them as being productive....and yeah I don't count that ( Read more... )

Man I didn't get to do what I had planned to do today at all with how heavy it was raining. Why is it every time I have a free day off to work on my storage unit lately that it is pouring down rain? Seriously WTF? *sighs ( Read more... )

Today has not been one of my better days. I got to work to be greeted by my boss to tell me I had fucked up royally on some tags. Granted it was a department I had no idea and they weren't angry with me...but I felt ashamed and so stupid. But at least my muck up was easy enough to fix ( Read more... )

Ugh just got back from the lawyer to see what it will take to file for bankruptcy. Nothing like having to reveal your financial skeletons and having to answer some very personal questions to leave you feeling not only like a failure but incredibly depressed ( Read more... )