fic: Being in love, PG
Title: Being in love
Rating: PG
Genre: General, pre-slash?
Disclaimer: I own nothing and I don't make any money, I'm just playing in someone else's sandbox.
Summary: Ryoma is 15 and in love with Tezuka.
A/N: I wrote this a long time ago and only now found it so decided to post it before I forget it again.
Ryoma watches Tezuka whenever he can. He watches him in the practices, in the clubroom, in the halls of the school, in the celebrations their team has. He doesn't seek to speak to him, he doesn't go and stand next to him on purpose. He just watches him and records every move. He wants to remember everything.
Ryoma is 15-years-old and and once again he can have only one year in the same team than Tezuka. He feels it's not enough, he knows it's not enough. He wants to share tennis with Tezuka forever. He wants to be 75-years-old someday and still play a game against Tezuka. He wants tennis with Tezuka to never end. Sometimes he wonders if there is tennis without Tezuka or if it's just an illusion of tennis.
He doesn't do anything about these thoughts. He doesn't tell them to anyone. Because Ryoma knows that there are some things even he can't do. Falling in love is something he can do in the future, after beating the old man and really being able to stand on his own. Falling in love with another man is something impossible. And even though Ryoma doesn't find men in general attractive, buchou is a man. Ryoma has seen proof of it. Several times. Completely by accident, of course.
Tezuka interrupts his thoughts by assigning laps to the regulars and Ryoma starts to move his legs automatically. 20, 30, 40 laps, it doesn't matter. He won't get tired, not anymore. He could run the whole damn afternoon if buchou told him to. Ryoma has never been in better shape and he owns it all to Tezuka. Without Tezuka he wouldn't push himself to be better, stronger, faster. Without Tezuka he would probably be in America, going to one of those sport high schools and try to become a pro. He has dreamed of becoming a pro since he found his own tennis but now he is wondering if that is what he wants. Tezuka said he wasn't sure he was going to go pro and Ryoma wonders if there is any real point to play tennis if he can't play it with Tezuka. Somehow, with Tezuka, tennis is so much nicer.
Ryoma listens to the feet stomping the ground and feels the breeze on his neck. He wonders when Tezuka became so important to Ryoma's tennis. He has had a racket in one hand and a ball in the other ever since he was a child. When did Tezuka become the center point of Ryoma's life?
Feet stomp on the ground and lifts dust from it, making the running boys dirty and their throats dry. Ryoma knows there's no point thinking what and when and why. There's no answer for those questions. It just happened at some point for some reason. He should concentrate on the present because that's all he has. That's all that matters right now. Soon enough it will be over.
Maybe next year he should go to America, Ryoma thinks. Maybe he finds a way to enjoy of tennis without Tezuka. Maybe he forgets Tezuka completely and playing tennis becomes what it really is, just playing.
He doesn't want to forget Tezuka. He doesn't want to change the reason playing tennis now is so much fun.
Being 15 and in love with your tennis team's captain is hard. But Ryoma only has this one year and he intends to remember it for the rest of his life.
Rating: PG
Genre: General, pre-slash?
Disclaimer: I own nothing and I don't make any money, I'm just playing in someone else's sandbox.
Summary: Ryoma is 15 and in love with Tezuka.
A/N: I wrote this a long time ago and only now found it so decided to post it before I forget it again.
Ryoma watches Tezuka whenever he can. He watches him in the practices, in the clubroom, in the halls of the school, in the celebrations their team has. He doesn't seek to speak to him, he doesn't go and stand next to him on purpose. He just watches him and records every move. He wants to remember everything.
Ryoma is 15-years-old and and once again he can have only one year in the same team than Tezuka. He feels it's not enough, he knows it's not enough. He wants to share tennis with Tezuka forever. He wants to be 75-years-old someday and still play a game against Tezuka. He wants tennis with Tezuka to never end. Sometimes he wonders if there is tennis without Tezuka or if it's just an illusion of tennis.
He doesn't do anything about these thoughts. He doesn't tell them to anyone. Because Ryoma knows that there are some things even he can't do. Falling in love is something he can do in the future, after beating the old man and really being able to stand on his own. Falling in love with another man is something impossible. And even though Ryoma doesn't find men in general attractive, buchou is a man. Ryoma has seen proof of it. Several times. Completely by accident, of course.
Tezuka interrupts his thoughts by assigning laps to the regulars and Ryoma starts to move his legs automatically. 20, 30, 40 laps, it doesn't matter. He won't get tired, not anymore. He could run the whole damn afternoon if buchou told him to. Ryoma has never been in better shape and he owns it all to Tezuka. Without Tezuka he wouldn't push himself to be better, stronger, faster. Without Tezuka he would probably be in America, going to one of those sport high schools and try to become a pro. He has dreamed of becoming a pro since he found his own tennis but now he is wondering if that is what he wants. Tezuka said he wasn't sure he was going to go pro and Ryoma wonders if there is any real point to play tennis if he can't play it with Tezuka. Somehow, with Tezuka, tennis is so much nicer.
Ryoma listens to the feet stomping the ground and feels the breeze on his neck. He wonders when Tezuka became so important to Ryoma's tennis. He has had a racket in one hand and a ball in the other ever since he was a child. When did Tezuka become the center point of Ryoma's life?
Feet stomp on the ground and lifts dust from it, making the running boys dirty and their throats dry. Ryoma knows there's no point thinking what and when and why. There's no answer for those questions. It just happened at some point for some reason. He should concentrate on the present because that's all he has. That's all that matters right now. Soon enough it will be over.
Maybe next year he should go to America, Ryoma thinks. Maybe he finds a way to enjoy of tennis without Tezuka. Maybe he forgets Tezuka completely and playing tennis becomes what it really is, just playing.
He doesn't want to forget Tezuka. He doesn't want to change the reason playing tennis now is so much fun.
Being 15 and in love with your tennis team's captain is hard. But Ryoma only has this one year and he intends to remember it for the rest of his life.