Well today started out ok got up early left for home and then got ready for work went to eat breakfast only to have another attack almost passed out got clammy sweaty stomach pains and threw up so had to call in once again :( I just wish I could figure out what is going on with me ( Read more... )

Well today I woke up extremely too early around 530am couldnt get back to sleep seems to be a new growing trend with me and getting earlier each time :( /sigh ( Read more... )

Well I havent been able to get online since last weekend but alot has happened ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a pretty good day we went to the beach however weather did not want to agree with us it never cleared up and rained on us :( so we ended up leaving and went to play putt putt golf :D that was fun even tho brian kicked all our butts! how wude!!! we came home made up the hamburgs for dinner not grilled :( /sigh but was still good ( Read more... )

Been a while since I have written in here again as usual lol not very good at this stuffs. Im out at Brians for the fourth weekend and we have been really talking alot lately about me moving in here so I guess its gonna become a reality here in the next few months :/ As much as I want to at the same time its such a scarry position for me to be in ( Read more... )

Been a while since I have written :P been dating Brian for 2 months now and I have to say that I think Im falling in love which scares the hell outta me truthfully... but thats part of life I guess. Going there this weekend and gonna meet his whole family for Easter that also makes me nervous as heck ( Read more... )

Well things have really changed alot this week :) I went out on that date with Ron and he was kind and a gentleman and the roses were awesome and opening doors for me and all that we just dont seem to hit it off quite yet.. theres just not a common connection no like goals or common interest so I started talking to Brian online and so far things ( Read more... )

Been a long time since I have written, I'm actually down to a size 6-7 now which I can never remember wearing this size ever in my life. It's funny how I still view myself as fat tho, I think alot of it has to do with my skin issues, which hopefully in time I can get taken care of ( Read more... )

Havent written in a few days, Saturday was the funeral and to say it was hard is an understatement ( Read more... )

Well yesterday wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. Im finding the hardest part of my step dad dying is re dealing with my mothers death all over again. Realizing that the two people who raised me are now both gone ( Read more... )