Contraction

[sassafras_siren]

My life has collapsed in on itself. What was once an emotion ever present in the background has become the gravitational force of my life: worthlessness. I thought as I grew older it would fade and I’d gain confidence. Instead the opposite has happened. If it’s at all possible, I feel less confident than I did when I was younger. This has

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[rotting_orange]

Dunno what's going on with your diss or your program but from what I hear this questioning is pretty routine..I even got it with my Master's...perhaps you need to set a concrete goal or focus for yourself? If it's not "Finish my dissertation" it could be "find what makes me really tick this year"? Make it an expressed goal or something.

Sounds like making the time for activities that draw you out of the apartment might be helpful, too.

But- remember that this is the time of year for reflection, and the first germinations of things to come. Don't push too hard if nothing's coming yet. And popping out kids just to give your life discipline probably isn't a great idea either. Be reflective, but not to the detriment of your mental health.

Once again...

[wykdkitten]

You've described my life, mostly. The feelings of my life - precisely

[2manyfetishes]

Keep searching for something. You're obviously very bright and intellectually curious, so there will ALWAYS be somewhere where such a person belongs. I would say that someone like you should be writing her thoughts constantly. Don't give up.