I'm done.
Apparently, I suck. Badly. So quite honestly, having just been thinking I had found a great guy who was actually worth effort, I realized I fuck up everything.
So. I'm done.
I have no idea what happened, something bad enough that I can't be told what it is. I am not doing this shit again. I hate it. It hurts.

I had an absolutely wonderful weekend. Got to spend a huge amount of time with the new guy I am liking very well so far. My kids and I spent the night with him and his son, had fun, I honestly just enjoy spending time with him. He is just about everything I could ask for in a guy, funny, smart, entertaining, just a genuinely nice guy, and ( Read more... )

Had a great jury duty case today, of course they plea bargained before I could get seated on the jury....turns out the woman pled for posses and intent to distribute for 3 lbs of pot. Now how the hell can you plead not guilty when they caught you with it on ya??? I mean an ounce, ok maybe personal use ya pothead, but 3 pounds ( Read more... )

I got to go to the lake on Friday, my kids and some friends and I went. First of the season I got to go, felt incredibly nice to swin again. Had a cookout, all that. Then Saturday I went out on a basically blind date. A guy that I talk to online, lives two blocks from me, his kid is in the same school as my kids. Went out to dinner, went and shoot ( Read more... )

Apart from finding out I need enough dental work to justify becoming a toothless welfare momma hag, or that I went to sleep and woke up with a major bruise, scrape and swollen knee..I've had a decent last few days. After listening to me cry last night, two of my better friends decided I needed to be drunk. Not drinking, drunk. 5 or 6 lemondrops and ( Read more... )

i'm drunk, and i fuckinhate myself.

ihate the personi've beomce, the person i am. Goddammit, i want to behappy.

all the shit that has followed me for years, i want it gone. fuck......

I dont' even know where to start ( Read more... )

Actually, not only have I been depressive, but today would have been my 10th anniversary. I definitely needed something to kick me out of my man annoyances, and to help me remember why being divorced isn't sucky. So after a rather boring evening watchign my bro rediscover his star wars toys, I dropped my kids off to their daddy and went to see my ( Read more... )

Hell. My life is Hell. I hate my mother, the all knowing, yet uncaring fat whiny bitch that she is. And joy of joys, I hear myself saying things as she does. After an incredibly lovely fight over how I feed my kids, give them food first, then get mine, damn am I evil, she took my kids to a movie to get them away from 'mommy in a bad mood, you know ( Read more... )

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