I cannot wait to leave here and start over with everything and I do mean everything. Six months is way too long. Celena you are a wonderful roomate and I will miss you. I will come visit everyone often.

Hey guys, I just got back from Tampa. I am a little numb right now and my day wasn't so great. I really wish I could just be with my dad right now. I held his hand for hours and it was hard to let go. He kept saying goodbye but wouldn't let go of my hand. I cried b/c I realized that I was the only one who had to leave and can't see him whenever I ( Read more... )

Dad in hospital, leaving for Tampa now. I will update later. For those of you who pray, please do and for those of you who don't, wish him luck. Please! You can't tkae my father, I just got to know him!

I swear I am just trying to pick fights with my friends now. It just so happens to be 2 out of the 3 I am really close to. What is wrong with me? Oh well, guys just ignore me when I go through my crazy spells. I love you two (3 really but you know what I mean) an I always will.

I can't seem to change to make anyone happy. I seem to be annoying everyone. I think I am trying to break up one of my best friendships and I don't know why. I don't mean to but I probably will b/c I am so fucking annoying. I would probably even leave myself b/c I don't make any sense. It is pointless to say I am sorry b/c I say it all the time. ( Read more... )

I got my first paycheck today ($36.83). Hey, at least it's something. That was only for 5 hours though. I love my job. I find it so relaxing and calming. I wanted to work yesterday just to help. I am crazy I know, what's new. I don't work Monday, Celena's birthday! I am so excited and I can't wait! I would type more but I must study.

To all of you who pushed me to go to the doctor, I did. I would have been better off not knowing. I don't see why you all care so much. Well we shall see what happens now. I will probably be coming home soon (within a year or sooner). I love my job and I am going to hate to leave it. Oh well, that's life and as Chad always says "shit happens". ( Read more... )

Hi everyone, things are going well. I think I needed a job just to ease my mind. I am going to get another job soon but I want to wait until fall semester is over. I really like Yankee Candle, I mean I get to pay with and sell candles all day. Everyone is so nice there and all crazy, so I fit in. The register seems intimidating though. I should be ( Read more... )

I got a job! I GOT A JOB!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! Yankee Candle $7.25 an hour and I start Monday. Oh yeah!
Good start for changing.

Yes it's true, I am changing and am not going to be the same person I use to be. No more oh look at me, my life sucks. Oh and I am fat but certainly not ugly. I am beautiful and can be sexy. I am done with trying to live my life for everyone else b/c frankly, everyone doesn't give a fuck. There happy? Yeah, I am going to lose weight, I am losing ( Read more... )