Its monday morning.. and omg im up before 11.. lol anyways i went to bed at like 930 last nite cuz i was so tired... the night before last me and Damian went to Dezerees way out in palmetto.. i got to see pics of brookin when he was younger.. anyways we drank.. and kyle and his cousin got there and they were high.. ive never seen kyle like that i ( Read more... )

I dreamed about Mark... I really really miss him and i have no way of gettin in touch with him... i kno these dreams im having are anxiety dreams.. ohwell.. i gotta get in the shower and get ready for work.. i really dont want to go .. but ohwell..

Dude this dream i had is weird.... it was about Jeff... now i havent seen Jeff in over a year.. i met him that one day and then that was it.. I dont even remember his last name.. but anyways he was in my dream in a tux and apparently i was going to some formal thing with him... and most of the dream was about me gettin ready for this thing.. and i ( Read more... )

well i talked to Eric last nite.. the reason hes been an ass to me is b/c he met someone in Mexico.. Like i give shit.. he thought i was gonna get all mad.. i was like no thats great now stop actin like an asshole to me.. just b/c he likes someone doesnt mean we cant be friends.. so anyways he all wants to eat me out... i dunno what thats about ( Read more... )

I am so fuckin bored its ridiculus... i dunno what imma do.... Shelley is gettin on my nerves all braggin about shit shes bought and how much it cost.. like i care.. now shes all nosey about who im going to fla with.. blah... i talked to kevin for a few tonite he said Brookin was most likely at Ants house.. so if he wants a ride home maybe hell ( Read more... )

another borin day has about passed.... i havent talked to anyone Joe was suppose to come over but of course he didnt.. ill write later i guess.. blah oh look joe is online now... * rolls eyes* figures... i dont kno why he always says hes coming and then dont.. i went to the tannin bed and this pretty thin girl came out.. makes me so sick if i could ( Read more... )

i had a weird dream... about going to some club.. but it wasnt like a strip club even tho devon was in it.. brookin and kevin were there.. me lelia tamber.. i dunno if staci was there... there were some other ppl too i just cant remember who they are right now.. but Devon got all pissy with Joe.. i remember that... then like me and lelia went to ( Read more... )

i am so emotionally confused... Brookin john brookin john.. then i IMed Eric and was like come over.. hes all come over now its too late and im tired.. blah blah.. so fuck him... that my last attempt at makin effort torwards him.. anyways i miss my husband.. next week will be one year hes been dead.... i cant talk to him ever again and i really ( Read more... )

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gosh im so bored... ihave nothing to do.. i want to call brookin but im not going too.. if he wants to see me he will call me.. i hate it that it has to be this way but thats how it is.. not my rules.. his.. ..:-( anyways i cant believe the way Eric is acting.. that is so fucked up.. he prolly planned it like that too... cuz he knew he was leavin ( Read more... )