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[satan_laughs]

My sister had to take me to see the therapist because the alternator went out in my car. I broke down while talking to the therapist. Something that's only happened once before with my old therapist, but that was due to Zoloft making me an emotional wreck. My only thought was that I didn't want my sister to know I'd been crying. I don't even

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[lamia_slumbers]

Jeez, what a rough day. I'm glad that your sister was there with you. It sounds like she is understanding and supportive. At least I hope so.
I'll fight the urge to dump my advice on you regarding the diabetes thing, I'm sure you don't need a lecture right now and you are very aware of the risks already.
Have you still been taking the Ritalin? I just wonder if one of the meds is also screwing around with your emotional equilibrium and helping to make your depression so unbearable.
Keep taking care of yourself--
I'm sending you some "mental" HUGS.

[satan_laughs]

I just took my first Concerta (ritalin) a few minutes ago. Was supposed to wait until morning, but what the heck. I did stop taking Risperdal a few months ago, and the withdrawals caused what felt like a major depressive episode. I think I'm still recovering from that and might ought to get back on something else.

*hugs back*

[rootfive]

Concealing one's emotions from others is such a burden, maybe today was something of a good thing. But not the being miserable, that's not a good thing.
It's so early for it to be warm- but it feels like it here too.
I hope tomorrow is better!

[satan_laughs]

Maybe you're right. There doesn't seem to be much friction between us at the moment, so, no worries.

I hope your's is too.

[anacolutha]

hey things sound intensely difficult at the moment.

i went through a time in my life when i couldn't stop crying, and i cried in all sorts of public places. i wouldn't say wailing but definite sobbing and gushing of tears. no one seemed to mind that much and the people who did notice just looked concerned. i didn't get the feeling that they were judging me in any way. and anyway, any judgments they could have made would have been totally irrelevant, because they knew nothing about me. it sounds like your sister would be the last person to judge you for your emotions, she sounds pretty cool and like she is happy to help out and be supportive where she can, and she obviously loves you. do you normally deal with your emotions pretty much alone?

hope you get any chemical issues sorted out soon and the emotions come a bit more stable and manageable. wish i was in the neighbourhood and could drop around to cut the grass for you.

[satan_laughs]

You're a saint. I do get to confide in a therapist with emotional problems, but, for some reason, she makes it worse. I don't like the pitiful way she looks at me. Man, how I miss my old therapist; she was such an angel.

[anacolutha]

if i was a saint i would want to be one of those hermits sitting on a rock in the desert. you should let her know how strong you are and not to be pitied but rather admired.