realizations are a shitty thing, especially if they happen a week too late.

hopefully i haven't fucked things up beyond repair.

4 days away from work at least made me remember who i am and what/who i care about.

did i mention today sucks?

I only write in this thing when I'm upset. I guess when today started out shitty that I should have know work would be shitty as well. I sat there for over an hour watching him stumble through it, just hoping it would end. It's so frustrating to spend so much time on something and have it be torn apart right before your eyes, highlighting every ( Read more... )

i was having a good day.

I hate feeling like i'm losing my friends, and that its my fault and no one else's. I mean, obviously I'm not losing them but I rarely see anyone anymore because i'm too tired or too sick to go out. I can't see carlos unless i go visit him at work or go see him dj.or anyone for that matter. i have to go out, and i just don't feel well enough. i ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of answering the same questions over and over. If things have changed, i'll fucking let you know.

ughhhhhhhhh i was writing so much shit but i don't even want to type it out.

the first time i've wanted to say something mean and i'm glad i held my tongue

i have like 1000000 things running through my mind right now and it sucks. i wish i didn't have to think about this shit, even if i am overreacting and being ridiculous. its just how i feel man, i can't change that shit. it FEELS that way. its the IMPRESSION i get from everything. ugh.

sometimes you can just feel it