I WANT TO BE DEAD

i miss my boyfriend. i want him to be here right now.

what did i do to myself?

some experiences really make you appreciate the people you have in your life.
and i now know for sure, there is no one more perfect for me at this moment.

collapsed at work.
went straight to doctor.
doctor made my mom take me to the emergency room.
nothing was accomplished.

i'm in love with the ordinary.

i haven't been to school since last tuesday. i don't want to go back tomorrow!
driving home today i realized things. i realized things are going pretty damn good.
and i'm so very lucky for just how good things are going.

i am sick. i want to die.

I'M FINALLY 18 YEARS OF AGE. AND I AM BLINGING!