love is a many splintered thing

[saturninerobot]

Interesting weather we're having. I'm waiting for the tornado warning siren to go off. The lightning is huge and slow, and rarely accompanied by thunder. I've got so much shit on my bed right now. Two tangerines, a sketch pad with pencils and an eraser, two lighters; one blue, one green, car keys to a car that doesn't work, my cell, a rock that

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[slackademic]

more meddling: I don't want you to want her to love you. and you probably don't want to either. and I'm sorry. and it's hurts to read, and it hurts to experience, and I hope that since we're in the future( it just rocks to say that) your remembering these posts is reflective and not anything awful. but it might be. and I think I'll stop commenting on posts that I wouldn't want to relive if I had written them and comment on just about anything else. forgive me, please, if I've dredged up things that you didn't want to think about.

[saturninerobot]

HA! This has got to be my favorite! It ROCKS to say that we are in the future, it really does. And I'm glad you think that way. Don't worry about making me feel anything I don't want to. I knew then it would take time, and I hurt about it everyday, but that's the way it goes. I also look back on all the bad that was there, and am relieved we are not together. Relationships shouldn't be the way it was. I've learn from it, and once I'm done hurting so much, perhaps I can fall in love with someone else. It didn't help that she was my first. I think a lot of this feeling of being lost comes from that. Then again, being ripped away from someone you've been attached to for so long is another possibility. I am feeling a lot better though. She doesn't contact me much because her new one won't let her, but it's helped me seperate myself. I hate when you're tired and post something, but don't remember what you posted so you don't re-read it to find out if you sound like an idiot or not. Oh well, here it goes.