Comments | saulittlesister: Already Gone

saulittlesister

Already Gone

Nov 22, 2009 04:35

I have no love anymore. Nothing is beautiful or good. There is only hate and hurt and fear. I am not known or seen or heard. Only one person ever really knew me, but he doesn't care to anymore. I no longer have a purpose. He said he couldn't be my reason to live. Well he was whether he liked it or not. And now he's gone. And everything else just ( Read more... )

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ash11487 November 22 2009, 17:14:41 UTC

I know we rarely talk/ see each other, but I still do read for updates and I'm available to talk whenever (besides if I'm at work... and then I would call you back as soon as I had the opportunity). <3 Liika

saulittlesister November 23 2009, 07:23:18 UTC

Thanks Liika. It's good to know that someone cares. This has been a terrible, rough week for me, and this is my nortoriously depressed season, and it all just feels like too much. I would call you but I don't have your number. It was good to just get a reply though. Thanks.

ash11487 November 23 2009, 17:11:40 UTC

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spomatic November 27 2009, 08:59:22 UTC

Wow. Mystee i've seen you have ups and down but i've never been able to tell "how" high or low they were. This entry scares me. I don't know what to say except i remember you as a kind of care-free spirit seeking truth. You picked a great LJ user name because my memories of you is quite like that of family, regardless of how much time we spent together ( ... )

saulittlesister January 12 2010, 13:07:59 UTC

I read this right after you posted it and mostly just tried not to get pissed. (Christians tend to just upset me more when they try to comfort me.) But now that I'm a little more clear-headed, I reread it and realized how beautiful it is. Thank you, Jacob. I especially liked the line about finding a balance between being head-strong and heart-broken. That's me in a nut-shell.

And by the way, thaat wasn't just any spider. That was Boing the amazing circus spider. He did back-flips. He was totally sent from God just to make me laugh that day. People don't have the ability to make me laugh when I'm crying. Not one. So God had to send a spider. I had almost forgotten about him. Thanks, Jacob.