So the Oshkosh Placement Exchange didn't go quite as I had hoped. I really thought that this was the job for me, and I really felt qualified, but no one really gave me a chance to show that ( Read more... )

I don't get many excuses to go out here in Madison, so when my co-worker Alex told me that his band was playing at an open mic later that day (yesterday) I immediately started planning to go. Conveiniently, I got off of work early. Not convieniently, another co-worker Andrew had given me terrible directions which left my car about a mile from the ( Read more... )

I just had a great conversation with Dan Ryan. For those who know him, he is doing better. I haven't talked to him in months, but we happened to chat on facebook which led to a phone call. I told him I was proud of him for his recent confession that he does need help, and he reminded me just how funny he is. He called me squeeks, and was sad that ( Read more... )

I am so dirty. I am a bitter, angry, promiscuous, drug addicted, lying thief. What would you want with me? What would anyone want with me? I break everything that I touch. I can be cruel and heartless and cutting. I can tear into those that I love without mercy. But to most I am simply cold, never giving them the chance to get close. I don’t think ( Read more... )

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I just listen to Red and I’m transported back into his room playing Carcassone and talking and cuddling. I miss him. I just listen to Lincoln Park and we’re in his car driving to nowhere in particular; the silence and the music strengthening our bond. I love him. I hold the tag hanging around my neck and think of the ring around his, and we’re ( Read more... )

Pastor Shane Holden - "In Revelations 19:1-2 it says that we will all say "true and just are his judgments" when we get there, so why don't we say it now? I don't understand why God lets the things happen that he does, and I don't understand why the world is in the state that it's in, but I know that one day I will say "true and just are his

I just finished my first day on my own (not training) at Applebee's. Long story short, I know that I could do better than I did tonight. I made $50 which is nice, but that (plus the tip out paid to the hosts) was only a 15% average. I can do better. Next week I work a lot, so I'll get lots of practice. But even with this being a bad  day, it was ( Read more... )

Oh I don’t want to go to work. Just the thought makes me want to vomit. I want to quit on the spot. I find myself hoping that something will go down, so I will have that final straw to push me over. I just dread work every day. I can’t stand this co-worker for reasons that are far too numerous and frustrating to list now, and my manager is ( Read more... )

I feel used, forgotten, unimportant, needy, annoying, and unseen. How do I ever walk in truth? Will it ever happen? If it's all on God and not me, why hasn't it happened yet? Ceasing to strive feels like giving up, andI can't do that ( Read more... )