Pieces: Chapter 4 (Finished)
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Title: (?)
Author: saurgristiel
Rating: PG-13
Pairings/Characters: GacktxYou, Family
Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Drama
Disclaimer: Blah blah, the usual.
Warnings: None
Words: 2,799
Summary: Recovery continues and memories can hurt.
Notes: Tissues for everyone! *tosses*. To hydeist-haido ^_^ (everybody else can read it too ^_~)
Chihiro was almost five and a half when the accident happened, so it was a little difficult for You and Miyuki to tell is she understood what had happened. Her fraternal twin cousins, who were closing in on nine, understood so they tried to keep Chihiro occupied so she didn’t miss her “Daddy” too much.
The accident was nearly 4 weeks ago and You was driving again. It was… interesting, but he could do it. One day, he made sure it was Friday afternoon so it didn’t affect school, he asked Chihiro if she wanted to see her daddy. She obviously said “yes”.
Miyuki brought her by the next day, at shift change, so that You could take her home for the night. You heard footsteps in the hall and then Miyuki preparing Chihiro one last time. You had talked to her the night before and he was pretty sure Miyuki had done it in the car too, since he heard Chi say, “I know!”
Miyuki opened the door the rest of the way and Chi nearly bolted to You’s side with a “Papa!” but Miyuki had grabbed the back of her overalls to stop her.
“We need to get clean first.” She held Chihiro up to the sink and had her wash up to her elbows, while You smiled behind his mask. She then set the girl down and put a mask on her, then nodded. “Gently.” Chihiro still hurried over to You while Miyuki cleaned up.
“Hi sweetie.” You helped her onto his lap and face her other father. She shifted in his lap as she processed everything.
“Will Daddy wake up?”
“Maybe, sweetie. We’ll have to wait and see.”
“Oh…”
“He could. You remember our talk last night, right?” She nodded. “He’s not done healing yet, like the Pokémon ICU.”
“Right…” She leaned forward and wrapped her small hand around Gackt’s right index finger. Just by medical accident, you couldn’t tell that Gackt had part of his skull removed, and for that, You was thankful. “Daddy…”
“You can talk to him if you want, honey,” Miyuki piped in as she took a chair next to You. The little girl just shook her head, stroking her thumb on Gackt’s hand.
They sat that way for several minutes, letting Chihiro experience this her way, when suddenly she cried out, “Daddy?”
“Honey?”
“Daddy moved! And his eyes… they’re moving…” She rolled Gackt’s hand, attempting to shake him, before You stopped her. He looked up at the brainwave monitor and while there was more activity, it wasn’t enough to be classified as waking up.
“He’s probably dreaming, sweetie. You have to be careful with Daddy so that you don’t hurt him.”
“But Daddy… his hand…” You kissed the back of his daughter’s head. He’d felt the same way the first time he’d felt Gackt twitch, only to have his hopes shattered when the love of his life didn’t wake up.
“It’s okay, honey…” Miyuki leaned closer and dried Chihiro’s eyes.
She rolled his hand gently, like Papa had said. “Daddy has to wake up… He has to…” They were silent for a while, Chihiro’s little sniffs were the only organic noises in the room.
“Honey, how about Papa takes you home?” You finally looked at the clock. They were diligent on making Chi get enough sleep.
“Okay…” She picked Gackt’s hand up with both of her hands and leaned forward to meet it, kissing the back through her mask.
“I love you Daddy.”
~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Car horn… blaring…
You tried to move, but pain shot through his neck. The rest of his senses came crashing back. It smelled like a mechanic’s shop, horn blaring, steam above the hood through the cracked windshield.
Cracked windshield, pain… accident?”
Gackt!
You turned to his right to see a utility pole outside the shattered window. He turned to his left to see Gackt slumped forward, jaw slack, one hand resting in his lap, blood dripping onto his hand and the steering wheel.
The door and roof were bent in some and You could see the crunched front end of an SUV just outside the window. He brushed the glass out of his lap and took out his phone. While he dialed and waited for 119 to pick up, he took Gackt’s hand. “Gaku,” his voice trembled. “Gaku please…”
“119, what is your emergency?”
“I’ve b-been in a car crash… an SUV hit us… I don’t know where we are…”
“Can you see any street signs or other landmarks?”
“I can see a McDonalds…” There was another voice on the other end of the phone.
“Are you calling from the purple Lamborghini that got hit by an SUV?”
“Y-Yes…” His hand tightened on Gackt’s.
“We’ve had some other calls, emergency units are on their way. What are the injuries?”
“My neck and knee hurts… but my driver… he’s unconscious and bleeding… We got hit really hard…”
“Alright, stay on the line with me until they get there.”
“Gaku… please let me know you’re in there…” You’s voice cracked.
Gackt’s arm twitched and it sounded like he coughed. His breaths turned into wheezes after that.
“Please hurry.”
“Gaku!” You sat up in bed, shaking. He put his tear and sweat drenched face in his hands, crying for a few minutes before getting up and going to their bathroom.
He stared in the mirror before reaching in his drawer and pulling out his new pain medicine bottle. He popped one and took a drink, then washed his face and returned to bed.
He hugged Gackt’s pillow to his chest tightly and cried himself back to sleep.
~*~*~
The EMTs paid little heed to the fact that their patients were famous. Their job was to save lives, no matter the social status of the victims.
“Please take care of him!” They heard the taller man yell as their patient was loaded into an ambulance.
“They will, sir,” one of their colleagues responded. “They’re the best.”
As the ambulance weaved through traffic, Sakata too stock of the man’s injuries, calling them in to the hospital: “Broken left tibfib, possible flail chest, probable internal bleeding, probable skull fracture with train trauma, one pupil fixed and dilated…
~*~
You was talking with the doctor that had taken over when Gackt’s condition was upgraded, Doctor Maeda.
“All of his scans from yesterday look good. We think in a couple of weeks we can remove the external fixture and it’ll be fine in a boot.”
You nodded. More surgery…
"His intracranial pressure and swelling have improved too, which is a good sign. Without sounding too hopeful… I believe his chances of waking up are greatly improving.”
You nodded again, his heart fluttering, but brain knowing that even if he woke up that he could also be married to an invalid, or someone with the mind of a child for the rest of their lives.
“This is going to sound like a strange request, but I’d like you to consider it…”
That broke You out of his reverie and he looked at the doctor, wondering what this request might be.
~*~*~
Pain…
“Augh…” Gackt groaned as his eyes were assaulted by the bright lights above him.
“Gackt-san?” He heard above the chatter and beeping. He whined in pain in response and felt two gloved fingers on each cheekbone. He felt air forced against his mouth and nose as he struggled to breathe without pain.
“Gackt-san, can you please open your eyes?” He sensed a shadow over his face and he opened his eyes to a half blurry face, partly covered by a mask. He tried to escape, but pain shot through his whole body, radiating from his left side. Even scrunching his face in pain hurt.
“What…?” He managed to croak out as he flinched in pain from something being pressed against his left ribs.
“You were in a car accident, Gackt-san. You’re in the ER of the Tokyo University Hospital. I need you to wiggle the toes on your right foot. Can you do that?” The doctor looked at Gackt’s feet expectantly and his eyes crinkled as he saw them move. “How about your left?”
They moved a little, but Gackt hissed in pain. “Hurts…”
“How about your fingers?” They had the same result as his toes.
“Hurts…” Tears formed in his eyes as the pain was almost too much. Combine that with being in a hospital and his psyche was close to freaking out.
“I know. You’re going to need surgery, but we need your consent. We’re sure you have several broken ribs, a compound fracture in your leg, and internal bleeding. We’re going to sedate you, intubate, run you through imaging, then the OR, okay?”
“Yes!” Gackt squeaked as someone accidentally bumped into the gurney. “W-what about You?”
“The other man in the car with you? He’s being checked out by my colleagues. You’re both in very good hands.”
“Okay…” Gackt watched the nurse shoot some white fluid into his IV. He noticed it burned a little, but the world quickly went away.
“Okay folks, show time.”
~~~
You saw several people usher a gurney past the doors of his exam room. “Where are they taking him?”
“Surgery, sir.” A doctor walked in with You’s imaging results. “Nothing is broken, but there is some inflammation, so we’ll take care of that…”
You carefully looked down at the clipboard in his lap. So much paperwork… Please let him be okay…
~*~*~
“I’ll think that over… Thanks for letting me know.”
“Thanks for thinking.” The doctor smiled at You.
The doctor noticed a few spikes in Gackt’s EEG, but only made a mental note of them. “Oh, right. I was waiting to make sure, but for the last week or so, Gackt has been doing most of the breathing on his own. He needs some help sometimes, but he is instigating the majority of his breaths.”
You smiled and looked at Gackt. Maybe he will wake up…
Gackt’s fingers tightened on You’s hand. He looked from Gackt to the doctor and back. “Gaku?”
Gackt took a deep breath and his eyebrows twitched. You put his other hand on Gackt’s and stroked it. “Open your eyes for me…”
Gackt’s hand weakly moved like it was trying to grasp something and the fingers on his other hand started moving as well.
“Gackt-san, this is your doctor, my name is Maeda. Can you please open your eyes?”
Gackt’s hands stilled and it looked like all of his effort was going into opening his eyes. They opened, but scrunched back closed because of the brightness. You made a move to turn some lights off, but Gackt’s hand tightened, not wanting to let go of him.
“Could you turn the lights off for him… His eyes, even if they hadn’t been closed for so long, are kinda sensitive…”
Maeda flipped the switch and then adjusted the blinds so they could still see, but be relatively dark.
“It’s darker now, Gaku…” You gave his hand a reassuring squeeze.
His eyes opened and it took him a while but he finally focused on You, managing a weak smile. He tried to say “You-chan” but nothing came out. His eyebrows got that inquisitive look.
“Don’t try to talk, Gaku.”
He wondered why and mouthed it in English.
You looked at the doctor. They’d discussed this before, what to tell him when he woke up. “We were in a car accident. You were hurt pretty badly.”
Gackt’s eyes closed. You couldn’t tell if he’d lost consciousness or if he was trying to remember.
“Gaku-”
“Do you remember, Gackt-san?” Dr. Maeda piped in.
Gackt’s head moved side to side, as much as it could in a neck brace, indicating ‘no’. His eyes opened again, with questions in them, but no way to get them out.
“You’ve been in a coma for a month, Gackt-san.” His eyes widened and his hand tightened on You’s. He looked between the two men and what he could see of himself and his heart rate picked up, beeping faster. He squeezed his eyes shut and the doctor saw the glint of a tear run out. Too many thoughts were coming to him at once, his actions being automatic.
“Don’t cry. You have a breathing tube in your throat and you can’t deal with mucus too well.” But it was too late, the path had been decided, and more tears came.
“Gaku, you’re okay.” You took to rubbing Gackt’s arm and the doctor made ready to suction his tracheotomy.
“This is usually not pleasant, so I’m sorry.” He disconnected the leader tubing and carefully suctioned his throat. Gackt had little idea of what was happening and started to panic.
“Whoa…” the doctor muttered as a strange noise came from Gackt. He’d never witnessed someone force air past the tracheotomy tube before. He put the suction tube back and reattached the breathing machine and reached into his pocket.
Gackt tried to move, but his leg, hip, and torso hurt so much. As the doctor walked around the bed, You stood and took Gackt’s face in his hands, making him look at him. “Gaku, focus on me, not Dr. Maeda…” You moved his hands to act like horse blinders when he noticed that he was trying to focus on Dr. Maeda and the needle. “Gaku, you’re okay. I’m okay. You need to calm down. When you wake up next, you can’t panic. I’ll be right here. Be calm when you wake up…” You could tell that Gackt was trying to fight the sedative, but they all knew he would lose. “Be calm…” Gackt’s eyes closed and he relaxed as he succumbed to the drug.
“Be calm…” You bit his lip and sniffed as he stroked the delicate cheek. “I love you…” He leaned forward and kissed his lover’s forehead as tears formed in his eyes. The fear he’d seen in Gackt’s eyes almost scared him. He’d seen Gackt this scared only once, and that had been a very long time ago.
~*~*~
You probably shouldn’t have been sleeping the way he was, slumped over onto Gackt’s bed, limply holding his hand, but he couldn’t have cared less. The doctor had said it would be a few hours before the sedative wore off and by some twist, Miyuki had called and said she’d be late.
Gackt opened his eyes to a mostly darkened room. The last rays of the day were coming through the blinds, giving the room and orangey glow. He looked around the room, as much as he could anyway, and then down towards the figure sleeping there. He’d moved while Gackt was surveying the room and Gackt reached for his hand. It was further away than he’d thought and he crawled his fingers on the bed to get there. His body was just so weak.
Unfortunately, finger-crawling still didn’t make it. He put everything he had into pulling on the blanket that was under both of them.
That, or fate, got You’s attention and he woke, slowly stretching as he sat up. A sleepy smile came to his face as he realized that Gackt was awake too.
“Hey you…” You brought his hands down and one took Gackt’s. He was happy to feel it respond.
“You probably want to know about the accident… I’m not supposed to tell you much, because in a few days, the doctor wants to do some tests…” Gackt looked like he understood and squeezed You’s hand for him to continue. “It wasn’t your fault. You got hurt the worst though… I got some whiplash and a banged up knee and ankle… You’ve had a few surgeries and will need a couple more, but you’ll be okay. Right now, getting better is what’s important.”
Gackt looked pensive, wondering how badly things had been. He was also too worn out to be uneasy about being in a hospital. He didn’t remember waking up before, but he remembered something about an accident.
“This is Tokyo University Hospital. You’ve been in an induced, then normal, coma for about a month…”
Gackt looked a little worried. He’d completely lost a month. A month of world events. A month without… It must have been hell for You…
You knew he should tell the nurses, but he wanted an awake Gackt all to himself right now. It had been too long. “Your sister will be here in a little while… She’s been here every night while I go home and see the kids.” He could tell Gackt’s blinks were lasting longer and longer. “It’s okay for you to sleep. Either me or Miyu will be here when you wake… I love you…” He lifted Gackt hand and kissed it as Gackt’s eyes slipped closed and his body went into sleep mode.
<<<= Chapter 3 Beginning Archive Chapter 5 =>>>
Title: (?)
Author: saurgristiel
Rating: PG-13
Pairings/Characters: GacktxYou, Family
Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Drama
Disclaimer: Blah blah, the usual.
Warnings: None
Words: 2,799
Summary: Recovery continues and memories can hurt.
Notes: Tissues for everyone! *tosses*. To hydeist-haido ^_^ (everybody else can read it too ^_~)
Chihiro was almost five and a half when the accident happened, so it was a little difficult for You and Miyuki to tell is she understood what had happened. Her fraternal twin cousins, who were closing in on nine, understood so they tried to keep Chihiro occupied so she didn’t miss her “Daddy” too much.
The accident was nearly 4 weeks ago and You was driving again. It was… interesting, but he could do it. One day, he made sure it was Friday afternoon so it didn’t affect school, he asked Chihiro if she wanted to see her daddy. She obviously said “yes”.
Miyuki brought her by the next day, at shift change, so that You could take her home for the night. You heard footsteps in the hall and then Miyuki preparing Chihiro one last time. You had talked to her the night before and he was pretty sure Miyuki had done it in the car too, since he heard Chi say, “I know!”
Miyuki opened the door the rest of the way and Chi nearly bolted to You’s side with a “Papa!” but Miyuki had grabbed the back of her overalls to stop her.
“We need to get clean first.” She held Chihiro up to the sink and had her wash up to her elbows, while You smiled behind his mask. She then set the girl down and put a mask on her, then nodded. “Gently.” Chihiro still hurried over to You while Miyuki cleaned up.
“Hi sweetie.” You helped her onto his lap and face her other father. She shifted in his lap as she processed everything.
“Will Daddy wake up?”
“Maybe, sweetie. We’ll have to wait and see.”
“Oh…”
“He could. You remember our talk last night, right?” She nodded. “He’s not done healing yet, like the Pokémon ICU.”
“Right…” She leaned forward and wrapped her small hand around Gackt’s right index finger. Just by medical accident, you couldn’t tell that Gackt had part of his skull removed, and for that, You was thankful. “Daddy…”
“You can talk to him if you want, honey,” Miyuki piped in as she took a chair next to You. The little girl just shook her head, stroking her thumb on Gackt’s hand.
They sat that way for several minutes, letting Chihiro experience this her way, when suddenly she cried out, “Daddy?”
“Honey?”
“Daddy moved! And his eyes… they’re moving…” She rolled Gackt’s hand, attempting to shake him, before You stopped her. He looked up at the brainwave monitor and while there was more activity, it wasn’t enough to be classified as waking up.
“He’s probably dreaming, sweetie. You have to be careful with Daddy so that you don’t hurt him.”
“But Daddy… his hand…” You kissed the back of his daughter’s head. He’d felt the same way the first time he’d felt Gackt twitch, only to have his hopes shattered when the love of his life didn’t wake up.
“It’s okay, honey…” Miyuki leaned closer and dried Chihiro’s eyes.
She rolled his hand gently, like Papa had said. “Daddy has to wake up… He has to…” They were silent for a while, Chihiro’s little sniffs were the only organic noises in the room.
“Honey, how about Papa takes you home?” You finally looked at the clock. They were diligent on making Chi get enough sleep.
“Okay…” She picked Gackt’s hand up with both of her hands and leaned forward to meet it, kissing the back through her mask.
“I love you Daddy.”
~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Car horn… blaring…
You tried to move, but pain shot through his neck. The rest of his senses came crashing back. It smelled like a mechanic’s shop, horn blaring, steam above the hood through the cracked windshield.
Cracked windshield, pain… accident?”
Gackt!
You turned to his right to see a utility pole outside the shattered window. He turned to his left to see Gackt slumped forward, jaw slack, one hand resting in his lap, blood dripping onto his hand and the steering wheel.
The door and roof were bent in some and You could see the crunched front end of an SUV just outside the window. He brushed the glass out of his lap and took out his phone. While he dialed and waited for 119 to pick up, he took Gackt’s hand. “Gaku,” his voice trembled. “Gaku please…”
“119, what is your emergency?”
“I’ve b-been in a car crash… an SUV hit us… I don’t know where we are…”
“Can you see any street signs or other landmarks?”
“I can see a McDonalds…” There was another voice on the other end of the phone.
“Are you calling from the purple Lamborghini that got hit by an SUV?”
“Y-Yes…” His hand tightened on Gackt’s.
“We’ve had some other calls, emergency units are on their way. What are the injuries?”
“My neck and knee hurts… but my driver… he’s unconscious and bleeding… We got hit really hard…”
“Alright, stay on the line with me until they get there.”
“Gaku… please let me know you’re in there…” You’s voice cracked.
Gackt’s arm twitched and it sounded like he coughed. His breaths turned into wheezes after that.
“Please hurry.”
“Gaku!” You sat up in bed, shaking. He put his tear and sweat drenched face in his hands, crying for a few minutes before getting up and going to their bathroom.
He stared in the mirror before reaching in his drawer and pulling out his new pain medicine bottle. He popped one and took a drink, then washed his face and returned to bed.
He hugged Gackt’s pillow to his chest tightly and cried himself back to sleep.
~*~*~
The EMTs paid little heed to the fact that their patients were famous. Their job was to save lives, no matter the social status of the victims.
“Please take care of him!” They heard the taller man yell as their patient was loaded into an ambulance.
“They will, sir,” one of their colleagues responded. “They’re the best.”
As the ambulance weaved through traffic, Sakata too stock of the man’s injuries, calling them in to the hospital: “Broken left tibfib, possible flail chest, probable internal bleeding, probable skull fracture with train trauma, one pupil fixed and dilated…
~*~
You was talking with the doctor that had taken over when Gackt’s condition was upgraded, Doctor Maeda.
“All of his scans from yesterday look good. We think in a couple of weeks we can remove the external fixture and it’ll be fine in a boot.”
You nodded. More surgery…
"His intracranial pressure and swelling have improved too, which is a good sign. Without sounding too hopeful… I believe his chances of waking up are greatly improving.”
You nodded again, his heart fluttering, but brain knowing that even if he woke up that he could also be married to an invalid, or someone with the mind of a child for the rest of their lives.
“This is going to sound like a strange request, but I’d like you to consider it…”
That broke You out of his reverie and he looked at the doctor, wondering what this request might be.
~*~*~
Pain…
“Augh…” Gackt groaned as his eyes were assaulted by the bright lights above him.
“Gackt-san?” He heard above the chatter and beeping. He whined in pain in response and felt two gloved fingers on each cheekbone. He felt air forced against his mouth and nose as he struggled to breathe without pain.
“Gackt-san, can you please open your eyes?” He sensed a shadow over his face and he opened his eyes to a half blurry face, partly covered by a mask. He tried to escape, but pain shot through his whole body, radiating from his left side. Even scrunching his face in pain hurt.
“What…?” He managed to croak out as he flinched in pain from something being pressed against his left ribs.
“You were in a car accident, Gackt-san. You’re in the ER of the Tokyo University Hospital. I need you to wiggle the toes on your right foot. Can you do that?” The doctor looked at Gackt’s feet expectantly and his eyes crinkled as he saw them move. “How about your left?”
They moved a little, but Gackt hissed in pain. “Hurts…”
“How about your fingers?” They had the same result as his toes.
“Hurts…” Tears formed in his eyes as the pain was almost too much. Combine that with being in a hospital and his psyche was close to freaking out.
“I know. You’re going to need surgery, but we need your consent. We’re sure you have several broken ribs, a compound fracture in your leg, and internal bleeding. We’re going to sedate you, intubate, run you through imaging, then the OR, okay?”
“Yes!” Gackt squeaked as someone accidentally bumped into the gurney. “W-what about You?”
“The other man in the car with you? He’s being checked out by my colleagues. You’re both in very good hands.”
“Okay…” Gackt watched the nurse shoot some white fluid into his IV. He noticed it burned a little, but the world quickly went away.
“Okay folks, show time.”
~~~
You saw several people usher a gurney past the doors of his exam room. “Where are they taking him?”
“Surgery, sir.” A doctor walked in with You’s imaging results. “Nothing is broken, but there is some inflammation, so we’ll take care of that…”
You carefully looked down at the clipboard in his lap. So much paperwork… Please let him be okay…
~*~*~
“I’ll think that over… Thanks for letting me know.”
“Thanks for thinking.” The doctor smiled at You.
The doctor noticed a few spikes in Gackt’s EEG, but only made a mental note of them. “Oh, right. I was waiting to make sure, but for the last week or so, Gackt has been doing most of the breathing on his own. He needs some help sometimes, but he is instigating the majority of his breaths.”
You smiled and looked at Gackt. Maybe he will wake up…
Gackt’s fingers tightened on You’s hand. He looked from Gackt to the doctor and back. “Gaku?”
Gackt took a deep breath and his eyebrows twitched. You put his other hand on Gackt’s and stroked it. “Open your eyes for me…”
Gackt’s hand weakly moved like it was trying to grasp something and the fingers on his other hand started moving as well.
“Gackt-san, this is your doctor, my name is Maeda. Can you please open your eyes?”
Gackt’s hands stilled and it looked like all of his effort was going into opening his eyes. They opened, but scrunched back closed because of the brightness. You made a move to turn some lights off, but Gackt’s hand tightened, not wanting to let go of him.
“Could you turn the lights off for him… His eyes, even if they hadn’t been closed for so long, are kinda sensitive…”
Maeda flipped the switch and then adjusted the blinds so they could still see, but be relatively dark.
“It’s darker now, Gaku…” You gave his hand a reassuring squeeze.
His eyes opened and it took him a while but he finally focused on You, managing a weak smile. He tried to say “You-chan” but nothing came out. His eyebrows got that inquisitive look.
“Don’t try to talk, Gaku.”
He wondered why and mouthed it in English.
You looked at the doctor. They’d discussed this before, what to tell him when he woke up. “We were in a car accident. You were hurt pretty badly.”
Gackt’s eyes closed. You couldn’t tell if he’d lost consciousness or if he was trying to remember.
“Gaku-”
“Do you remember, Gackt-san?” Dr. Maeda piped in.
Gackt’s head moved side to side, as much as it could in a neck brace, indicating ‘no’. His eyes opened again, with questions in them, but no way to get them out.
“You’ve been in a coma for a month, Gackt-san.” His eyes widened and his hand tightened on You’s. He looked between the two men and what he could see of himself and his heart rate picked up, beeping faster. He squeezed his eyes shut and the doctor saw the glint of a tear run out. Too many thoughts were coming to him at once, his actions being automatic.
“Don’t cry. You have a breathing tube in your throat and you can’t deal with mucus too well.” But it was too late, the path had been decided, and more tears came.
“Gaku, you’re okay.” You took to rubbing Gackt’s arm and the doctor made ready to suction his tracheotomy.
“This is usually not pleasant, so I’m sorry.” He disconnected the leader tubing and carefully suctioned his throat. Gackt had little idea of what was happening and started to panic.
“Whoa…” the doctor muttered as a strange noise came from Gackt. He’d never witnessed someone force air past the tracheotomy tube before. He put the suction tube back and reattached the breathing machine and reached into his pocket.
Gackt tried to move, but his leg, hip, and torso hurt so much. As the doctor walked around the bed, You stood and took Gackt’s face in his hands, making him look at him. “Gaku, focus on me, not Dr. Maeda…” You moved his hands to act like horse blinders when he noticed that he was trying to focus on Dr. Maeda and the needle. “Gaku, you’re okay. I’m okay. You need to calm down. When you wake up next, you can’t panic. I’ll be right here. Be calm when you wake up…” You could tell that Gackt was trying to fight the sedative, but they all knew he would lose. “Be calm…” Gackt’s eyes closed and he relaxed as he succumbed to the drug.
“Be calm…” You bit his lip and sniffed as he stroked the delicate cheek. “I love you…” He leaned forward and kissed his lover’s forehead as tears formed in his eyes. The fear he’d seen in Gackt’s eyes almost scared him. He’d seen Gackt this scared only once, and that had been a very long time ago.
~*~*~
You probably shouldn’t have been sleeping the way he was, slumped over onto Gackt’s bed, limply holding his hand, but he couldn’t have cared less. The doctor had said it would be a few hours before the sedative wore off and by some twist, Miyuki had called and said she’d be late.
Gackt opened his eyes to a mostly darkened room. The last rays of the day were coming through the blinds, giving the room and orangey glow. He looked around the room, as much as he could anyway, and then down towards the figure sleeping there. He’d moved while Gackt was surveying the room and Gackt reached for his hand. It was further away than he’d thought and he crawled his fingers on the bed to get there. His body was just so weak.
Unfortunately, finger-crawling still didn’t make it. He put everything he had into pulling on the blanket that was under both of them.
That, or fate, got You’s attention and he woke, slowly stretching as he sat up. A sleepy smile came to his face as he realized that Gackt was awake too.
“Hey you…” You brought his hands down and one took Gackt’s. He was happy to feel it respond.
“You probably want to know about the accident… I’m not supposed to tell you much, because in a few days, the doctor wants to do some tests…” Gackt looked like he understood and squeezed You’s hand for him to continue. “It wasn’t your fault. You got hurt the worst though… I got some whiplash and a banged up knee and ankle… You’ve had a few surgeries and will need a couple more, but you’ll be okay. Right now, getting better is what’s important.”
Gackt looked pensive, wondering how badly things had been. He was also too worn out to be uneasy about being in a hospital. He didn’t remember waking up before, but he remembered something about an accident.
“This is Tokyo University Hospital. You’ve been in an induced, then normal, coma for about a month…”
Gackt looked a little worried. He’d completely lost a month. A month of world events. A month without… It must have been hell for You…
You knew he should tell the nurses, but he wanted an awake Gackt all to himself right now. It had been too long. “Your sister will be here in a little while… She’s been here every night while I go home and see the kids.” He could tell Gackt’s blinks were lasting longer and longer. “It’s okay for you to sleep. Either me or Miyu will be here when you wake… I love you…” He lifted Gackt hand and kissed it as Gackt’s eyes slipped closed and his body went into sleep mode.
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