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Apr 18, 2007 18:57

Mmmm, crappy day. We took Bonnie to the vet and put her down. It's hard for me to be sad unless I stop to think about it. These past few months it's almost like she hasn't been here anyway. She was just sort of fading away and getting worse and worse. She was so confused. I don't think she was even there anymore. I'm kind of relieved. It was tough ( Read more... )

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cat_star27 April 19 2007, 01:27:55 UTC

nadia! that sucks, i am so sorry. bonnie really was sick, wasn't she?
when grace died, i was so upset and then two days later i was fine. i felt really guilty about that, but then i realized that it WAS okay, because she was so old that she was miserable all the time. life DOES go on, i guess.

save_me_jebus72 April 19 2007, 03:24:41 UTC

I thinks he was supposed to die like three months ago, but we just kept upping her meds and keeping her alive. Like Charlie!

But yeah, I feel weirdly guilty because I got over it in about an hour and then I just couldn't be sad anymore. But I think it's different when someone is sick for so long because you know what's coming and you have all that time to come to grips with it. And we'll get a puppy soon, so new life will continue the cycle and all that. It happens, I suppose.

cat_star27 April 19 2007, 03:51:22 UTC

no, i completely agree. you're grieving for a long time because you're grieving while they're still alive. then when they do die, you've exhausted your sadness and you're kind of glad it's over, awful as it sounds. i just remember being so... horrified by the way she was breathing. every little breath was a gasp. so when she finally died, after hours and hours, i was kind of thankful. i don't think you should feel guilty.