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to you
im trying my hardest to have these feelings be over with. but i just cant get through it alone. i have my friends, you have yours, i have a family to get support from, which i can get, but what i want, is you. thats all im asking for. that you wouldnt like my best friend, that you wouldnt call me everynight- giving me signs, not coming up to my locker and messing with my books, but to hold me and kiss me like you used to. u wouldnt understand the pain behind this smile.. you even comment about it, but im not ready to tell you all my feelings just yet. even though last night i got pretty close to spilling everything i have out to you, i held myself back, which im proud of. its like ive shared my life with you already, telling you every detail that you probably randomly think of during the day. you told me why it was over, and since ive messed up, i make myself regret all the friends i have that messed things up, cuz i would give anything to be with you..
i dont want to deal with this bullshit
i just wish that i can be happy when im around you, i wish that i didnt have flashbacks when i talk to you. but no- i have anger and hurt and thats all i think about. i look at you, and i want to cry. youve seen me before, have you realized it yet? i know maybe this is over reacting, but maybe this is what i want, i think its what i need, maybe im looking in a wrong direction.
i dont want to like you. i hate liking you. its hard dealing with your shit everyday. i need someone who really cares for me, and isnt "sloppy seconds". this is getting old, this is getting sickening, i cant help this though. why is this happening?
how was your day?
im trying my hardest to have these feelings be over with. but i just cant get through it alone. i have my friends, you have yours, i have a family to get support from, which i can get, but what i want, is you. thats all im asking for. that you wouldnt like my best friend, that you wouldnt call me everynight- giving me signs, not coming up to my locker and messing with my books, but to hold me and kiss me like you used to. u wouldnt understand the pain behind this smile.. you even comment about it, but im not ready to tell you all my feelings just yet. even though last night i got pretty close to spilling everything i have out to you, i held myself back, which im proud of. its like ive shared my life with you already, telling you every detail that you probably randomly think of during the day. you told me why it was over, and since ive messed up, i make myself regret all the friends i have that messed things up, cuz i would give anything to be with you..
i dont want to deal with this bullshit
i just wish that i can be happy when im around you, i wish that i didnt have flashbacks when i talk to you. but no- i have anger and hurt and thats all i think about. i look at you, and i want to cry. youve seen me before, have you realized it yet? i know maybe this is over reacting, but maybe this is what i want, i think its what i need, maybe im looking in a wrong direction.
i dont want to like you. i hate liking you. its hard dealing with your shit everyday. i need someone who really cares for me, and isnt "sloppy seconds". this is getting old, this is getting sickening, i cant help this though. why is this happening?
how was your day?