you write such pretty words, why can't you be the way you write?

[sax_tothe_max]

I've been thinking alot, not too much talking. Just sitting and listening to everything. You discover alot, about yourself and other people, who you really are and who they really are. It's a strange uncomfortable subject

Comments

[mephrodite]

I know exactly how you feel. I see people doing such stupid shit...like getting high or drunk so much that they don't remember sobriety...and hurting the people that love them the most, because they can't love anything else but that high all the time, and then pushing themselbes and everyone around them to the edge.....

I hate it here because we are wasting our time. We have the resources and the capabilites of doing so much more than we can here....we are just wasting here....

[every_summer]

i was about to leave a comment that was almost like jocelyns...that talked about how people doing things like drinking, hurt not only themselves in the future, but the people that love them now

and you know i love you, which is why i dont like you doing things like that, because while you are trying to help yourself you're hurting others who have to watch and know that you're doing it

either way, its your decision but you know i will always be here for you whether you make good or bad decisions...i just dont want to see someone, especially someone i care about, turn into what my uncle has..and cause everyone who cared about him pain because of what he did

[sax_tothe_max]

I don't know what to say. I'm sorry.

[every_summer]

its ok, i just want you to know all the people who do care about you and dont want to see you hurt or hurting yourself..you have alot of people who care about you whether they show it all the time or not

[binzer]

i know we aren't that close but if you ever want to talk, or just bitch and i'll listen......feel free to IM or give me a call. i'm a good listener :)

[starstruck12189]

that was very insightful...however, perhaps at least one thing you said in it was wrong. there is not only ONE person you can keep trusting. I know for a fact of two others (for sure) who really care about you. Caitlin, for one, always listens and gives you her point of view to help you. Friends can't get much better than her, some people don't realize how great she is. And I will never not listen to you, I get distracted (haha) but I would never completely ignore you. I really care about you and don't like to see you in pain when there's nothing I can do to help you...

Would I have read, and actually absorbed that WHOLE entire entry if I didn't care about you?!?! lol I hope you feel better

[sax_tothe_max]

ha..good point. because i can tell when you don't read them because your comment doesn't relate in the slightest way to my entry. ha. but thanks

[every_summer]

leigh..what are you doing?

are you getting ready for school?

--your dad

oops, silly me

[sax_tothe_max]

wow, got totally confused when i read that. i seriously was thinking, "what? Why is leigh's dad at caitlin's house?" NO LIE.

[mearlyagirlh129]

It's really weird for me to read your journal and just soak up the things you say... most of what you feel now I've felt before and it's really weird to see someone else in that situation ya know? I know we don't talk much anymore but please know I'll always care about you hun... even if I don't show it.

[sax_tothe_max]

thanks. i hope you're having fun in california!!