Feeling in a funk
I think I am going to try to go eat my lunch outside if it is warm enough. I need to figure out some way to get out of this funk. I don't feel like doing anything, I'm always tired, but can't get a full night's rest, and just feel generally blah. Part of it I think is because I'm still talking to him and he's telling me how he's going to change and how he has to because he wants me in his life, blah-blah-blah. Yet, nothing seems to be changing. Things are only getting worse. It's like when I saw him more, I got to see SOME happy moments. Now all I hear when I talk to him is about how crappy everything is. You are allowed to morn, yes. I morned for quite some time. But it has been 4-5 months now and at some point you have to tell yourself, "It is ok to still be sad sometimes, but I can't ALWAYS be mopey. I have to decide to TRY to think about other things rather than refusing to think about anything else because I want to feel sad still." It's just kind of pushing me further away.
I can't wait until this weekend. I have a lot to do this week (dr. appts, job application stuff for the summer, etc.) I just want to sleep.
Also, *knock on wood* I think the cats are taking to their new litter box just fine. Already smells 100 times better in my apartment. I think this may have been the best investment I've made in a long time.
I can't wait until this weekend. I have a lot to do this week (dr. appts, job application stuff for the summer, etc.) I just want to sleep.
Also, *knock on wood* I think the cats are taking to their new litter box just fine. Already smells 100 times better in my apartment. I think this may have been the best investment I've made in a long time.