i didn't have to go to Dr. Winner ( Read more... )

Something happened this evening at about 6:22.
It was spectacular.
THE GREAT SKATASTROPHE left Jazz Land and began it's depature to SKA WORLD.

We have a song.
We don't have a guitar player.
But that's simply because TGS is alergic to instruments with more than 4 strings.

...everyone and their mum plays guitar, WTF?

I have to go Grocery Shopping when I ( Read more... )

I HATE THEATRE.
alright.
i'm finished.

I forgot to tell my mum i took my last dose of Baclofen last night ( Read more... )

FUCK
my paranoia
lacking the ability to explain how i feel
doctors
war
Baclofen
Amitryptiline
Topamax
Magnesium
Inderfin
Librium
Dr. Winner
MRIs
brain waves
my shitty grades
my fake inteligence
miami
miami boys
misunderstandings
being misunderstood
being alone
being mistreated
traitors
class of '10
class of '09
college
good people dying tragic deaths
eating, then never ( Read more... )

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Looking into someones eyes when I'm telling them how I feel.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry?
October 6th, the doctor was telling me all ( Read more... )

miami was good and i had a great time.

friday: i got there around 6 and jess dropped me off at monica's because he had work that night and we hung out there and drank and did nothing.

saturday: went to a gun and knife show with my brother and he wouldn't buy me brass knuckles. We went to a show and met up with Andres and the timids(all 4!) and it was ( Read more... )

i want 8 full hours of sleep ( Read more... )

my HPA is 3.7.
and I can do better.
and everyone makes me feel bad because everyones better than me.

I went to the psychiatrist today and my dad had to sit in the room with me. And I had to answer these crazy(literally) questions in front of him. I'm depressed, yes. They want to put me on Prozac, yes. I am going to a therapist now. She doesnt ( Read more... )

Next weekend I'm going to Miami. I need to see Jess, I havn't spoken him in 3 weeks. I need to see Rose, I havn't seen her in 3 months. I need to see Andres...i saw him tuesday.. But I am going. I'll stay with Rose if Jess doesn't want me there. I'll stay at Andres's if Rose is busy but will lie and say I'm with her anyways.

yeah and I suck at life ( Read more... )