I watched them put my grandma's casket into a wall yesterday, and two hours after that I got a phone call from the nurse saying to come home because my dad wasn't well at all.
Hours later there were 23 cars outside my house, jammed with people.. family who loved us & friends who cared. Loyalty beyond anything I've ever seen. My father passed away ( Read more... )

my aunt just called my house phone. Woke up my mom & told her that they called the priest about 10 minutes ago, to give my grandma her last blessings ( Read more... )

Nick went away to college. Even though "away" is only about 20 minutes, the "away" part kills me. He came home 2 nights ago, I got to see him yesterday <3 He made fun of me, we got into a fight, we hugged & I left. The usual Forte-Paris meeting. I'm so fucking happy I get to see him tomorrow, I'm going to hang out with him in his dorm =) His ( Read more... )

Nick left for college

Lately I've been wishing I had one desire
something that would make me never want another
something that would make it so that nothing matters
all would be clear then

but I guess i'll have to settle for a few brief moments
and watch all dissolve into a single second
and try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
or one foolish linecause that's ( Read more... )

frequent trips to Laur's apartment have kept me sane in the past couple of weeks. As has seeing Nick as much as I can. Yet there's still something missing out of this thing I'm calling my life. College starts soon but I'm not feeling very "collegey" right about now, nor do I think I will ( Read more... )

first off -Nick, Bruno, Kenny, Laur, John, Joe & anyone I forgot (sorry) - thanks for everything you guys have done in the past couple of days. It really does mean the world ( Read more... )

the past 4-5 days have been spent with Bru =) Last night was PCJ - Nick & Bru both played apart then they played Testing The Strong Ones together <3 Andy was there ( Read more... )

the past couple of days have been insanity ( Read more... )

Matt left.